A big wow of sorts  

rm_loneremily 33F
380 posts
8/15/2006 4:37 pm

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8/20/2006 7:18 am

A big wow of sorts

Yesterday--I came home from work to find my power (electric) had been shut off. A very sizable bill hanging blissfully in my door.

Tears form. I go in the place and open all of the windows--thankfully, here was a cool breeze to dull the stinging heat from the inside of my tin hut.

I immediately think of the food that will spoil--my cat that will DIE (it can get to 100 degrees in my place on a hot day without AC)... And then ALL of the things I wouldn't be able to do--like dishes and laundry.

Did I have the money? NO! I call up the ex.

"Did you know how big this bill was? When was the last time it was paid?"


"So... You'd still have me believe that you love me? Or that you've ever loved me? If you'd ever loved me, you WOULD NOT have let your pride get in the way of the kids and MY needs. Would you?"


"Do you know how I can get the money?"
"No." Thanks.

Then I had to rack my brain about who I could call. Should I put MORE on the tab my brother has started? Already up to $3,000 (and I'm SURE I won't be getting ANY help taking care of that debt from the worthless ex)? I knew the 'rents didn't have it. Nor my sister.

Whose left? Friends. There was only one I figured might've been able to help. I REALLY didn't want to ask him.

I became composed--somehow. Called him up (FW. I told him what happened and I started crying again (stupid femininity). He asked if I wanted help. He didn't even let me pose the question.

After he took care of my troubles I said, "I guess this is technically a form of prostitution."

"You're worth every penny." He meant it as a compliment, but I felt like a severe whore.

I liked him ten times more for what he did. He didn't like that I was apoligizing. He didn't even mention anything about paying him back.

We had dinner and then we cuddled. We didn't have enough time for anything else at that point--I had to be home to watch the kids.

It really was a sweet, sweet thing that he did for me. Considering he could've just said something like, "Wow. That sucks." And I would've COMPLETELY UNDERSTOOD if he didn't offer to help. And I wouldn't have been pissed, either, if he hadn't offered to help.

Once I got home, I wished that I was still holding him.

I think he'll make some lucky woman a very happy wife, someday.

keithcancook 60M
17718 posts
8/15/2006 5:23 pm

"No one is a failure who has friends, George"

So said Clarence the angel to George Bailey in It's A Wonderful Life.

Blog On!

Choozmi 50M

8/15/2006 11:29 pm

It sounds like you're falling for your FWB.

Not that there's anything wrong with that...

rm_dosrev 39M
2091 posts
8/16/2006 4:31 am

At the risk of coming off like a COMPLETE ass...

Why is the ex paying your bills? I learned a long long time ago that you should ALWAYS be in charge of your own bills, or they have a tendancy to not get paid.

Try to look at it as a lesson learned.

"Enough of this palaver, lets get the show on the road!"
"The best thing about a day like that is that it can't get any worse. It was a bad day AND a Monday. The rest of the week has to be better." - Hotandsteamygirl

Gossip_Anyone 40F

8/16/2006 11:10 am

"Lean On Me"

Recorded by "Bill Withers"
Album: "Still Bill" - 1972

Sometimes in our lives, we all have pain, we all have sorrow.
But if we are wise, we know that there's always tomorrow.
Lean on me, when you're not strong and I'll be your friend.
I'll help you carry on, for it won't be long 'til I'm gonna need somebody
to lean on.

Please swallow your pride, if have things you need to borrow.
For no one can fill those needs that you won't let show.

You just call on me brother when you need a hand.
We all need somebody to lean on.
I just might have a problem that you'll understand.
We all need somebody to lean on.

Lean on me when you't not strong, and I'll be your friend.
I'll help you carry on, for it won't be long 'til I'm gonna' need
somebody to lean on.

You just call on me brother if you need a friend.
We all need somebody to lean on.
I just might have a problem that you'll understand.
We all need somebody to lean on.

If there is a load you have to bear that you can't carry.
I'm right up the road, I'll share your load if you just call me.
Call me (if you need a friend)
Call me

IsThisBetter4u 105M

8/16/2006 7:12 pm

My ex continued to pay my cell phone bill for almost a year after we split. Of course she owed me $500 and was paying it back...but it wasn't an obligation of any sort. When we split it was over...no booty calls...no nothin'. When I got the call that she was terminating the account unless I transfered service I was pissed. She still owed me over $200. But the way I saw it was this...My phone is my responsibility, not hers. We still haven't spoken and probably never will. Don't rely on him...he will let you down again.

rm_loneremily 33F
328 posts
8/17/2006 5:47 pm

We have kids. He says he WANTS to help. The utilities are usually miniscule. My job doesn't pay enough for me to survive without ANY help. PLUS he was the one that got me into this mess in the first place.

ArgosPlumyKooky 45F
3902 posts
8/17/2006 11:01 pm

oh dear. . . glad the lights are now on

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