Lost in loneliness  

rm_lkndllsgrl 37F
86 posts
5/12/2005 3:52 pm
Lost in loneliness

Here I am. Sitting here. Sad, confused, excited, nervous. Is it possible to feel that wide of a spectrum of emotions at one time? If you have read any of my previous blogs, you know that my husband is on his way to prison. I miss him. I love him. I am lonely. So I joined passion and a few other sites, to see what and who is out there. Maybe someone that can deal with the fact that I dont want a one night stand, but I have an obligation to my husband. What I really want is someone to hold me, kiss me, make love to me, without ever wanting to marry me. So I have met a few guys. I am talking to at least one now, and have a "date" to meet. Not have sex, just meet. I am excited about this. Nervous. I want to meet other people. This bothers my husband so much, that I dont know what to do. I love him. But, he cant be there for me the way I need or want him to be. I dont know whether to continue on my quest, or leave it alone. I dont want to hurt him. I really do care about the way he feels. I just dont want to be lonely anymore.


gxman69 57
4 posts
5/13/2005 9:53 pm

It must be a diffucult thing to do, waiting that is I was on the other side. Praying that I still had a life to go to. How Long is he going to be gone?1yr nickel a dime. If it is going to be much over two years you will grow apart since we dont do much growing in there. If it is less than two years than maybe sticking to cyber sex is the way to go but there are support groups out there that can help see ya later.

LeEnchantress 55F

5/12/2005 5:36 pm

lkndllsgrl.. aren't there such a thing as conjugal visits in the prison in which your husband is being sent? I can well understand your poor husband's concern and anguish.... I don't know how long he is going for.. but if it isn't a long term sentence.. couldn't you just wait for him?

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