Broken dreams....Dented ego.  

rm_lienkie 52F
105 posts
5/29/2006 4:53 pm

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6/6/2006 11:07 pm

Broken dreams....Dented ego.


I was just doing my own thing not actually thinking of meeting anyone here.Then his name caught my eye.I say hallo and he said bye bye.So he went missing for a while and there he pops up again. So we play hi and bye..was fun tho.So we chat and decided to have some cofee.I liked him a lot and he also liked me a lot ..I was a bit weary to start getting all mushy over him..it was so difficult..he was so gorgeous.I went to jis place where we were sitting having coffee and talk till the whee hours of the morning.So a friendship develop....He absloutely pay attention to me as if i was the only woman in the world for him.I felt so good and so apreciated ...I was dreaming i had to pinch myself to realised i am not dreaming...so it became routine...making him supper and have coffee and then may be a bit of loving and caring and playing then i'm off to home...He gave me a set of keys to keep with me for keeps sake.The relationship is getting serious now.. I am scared the bubble is going to pop.It is to good to be true.Well one day i realised something is not wot it should be my 6th sense never failed me.I pretend i am not aware of some under lying tensions....so one night i decided to go and have a drink with a friend...got pissed phone him and ask just to sober up at his place trhen i'm off home but he was not there at home...Just to hear he was there the same time i phoned but he was to occupied and did not tell me the truth.So now i don't know wot to believe and wot ot.My instinct is whispering don't trust him he is telling you stories and don't believe him.all of a sudden the dates is changed and there is no ways time to have coffee but always an alibi why he did wot he did.I HATE LIES AND TO BE KEEP IN THE DARK!Tell me straight its not working or give me a break i need some space it is not a problem, but its too late now my heart is broken i had to pretend i am ok even though i am not okay. Friends don't lie to each other nor keep them in the dark and make empty promises.I went to make arrangements to get the divorce oer to be with him for ever the promise i made him the week before...just to find out it was in the heat of the moment.

So here I am.This is me.Yes just me, myself, I.No one to blame for my mistakes and foolishness.Next time i am not going to be fooled again.

lovefundbn 58F

5/30/2006 7:40 am

Hi Lienkie, we all get fooled and hurt but we must dust ourselves off and carry on. I made a friend 10 months ago, we had a lot of fun chatting online. Then met, everthing seemed so good. Then I found out he had been lying to me all the time. Even his name was a lie!


rm_lienkie 52F
45 posts
5/30/2006 1:30 pm

Dear lovefundbn, you know i hate it sometimes if it happens.I tried to avoid getting emsionally involved, but when someone keeps on telling me he loves me (fuck that) and he cares and i tell myself not to believe it and he carries on and on and when you let your guard down and admit he is doing it for you and that you start to feelsomething and then he turns around and say sorry the story was not wot he had in mind in other words he had me there fr his own oleasure not that i did not enjoy it but still you know..Well, let me get on with my life now i am going to find, fuck and forget them.


lovefundbn 58F

5/31/2006 1:51 am

Good for you Lienkie, enjoy, have fun!!!!


rm_Capie00 54M
41 posts
6/18/2006 5:08 pm

This guy is not worthy of you Lienkie!! He took advantage of your love and most of all your soul!


rm_skedonkie 52F
3 posts
6/24/2006 12:55 pm

aagh life's a road full of surprises...or just like a box of choclits not knowing wot u get when u open it


Offshore500 50M
4 posts
6/28/2006 3:44 am

Hi Lienkie
Hang in there dear there is always alight at the end of the tunnel.


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