Awkwardville, next right  

rm_lash310 48M
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3/19/2006 12:03 pm

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3/26/2006 12:51 pm

Awkwardville, next right

Well, my spiritual vacation is at an end. This past week, I was finally able to breathe, to stretch out a bit and really relax for the first time in quite a while. My soon-to-be-ex wife went to New England to visit her family, and for 7 whole, glorious days, I was free from a host of annoyances that I had barely been concious of.

That all came to a rather abrupt and dramatic end when she came back last night. The concept of going out for coffee or a meal with someone is now a source of some awkwardness. I knew this would be one of the things we would both have to adjust to when we decided to remain living together despite our seperation, but it only really hit me last night, when she came home and noticed the condoms visible in the bottom of my travel bag. She didn't say anything, but it was at that moment that she realized that I might really be sleeping with someone, and she didn't quite know how to process that information. I could see her mentally kicking herself for not realizing it before, given how obvious it is in retrospect...If I'm single (or nearly so), I'm going to date...and if I'm dating, I might well get lucky.

I find myself wrestling with how much to tell her about my personal activities. The fact is, I have a lady friend (that I met through AdultFriendFinder) that I enjoy a FWB relationship with, and a couple more that I have met through other resources that I will be spending time with. I don't hate my wife, so telling her "none of your business" if she asks where I'm going seems quite the same time, I know that sharing details with her would probably hurt her as much, if not more. I'm sure there's a balance there, but I haven't found it yet. I guess I'll burn that bridge when I come to it.

clevergirl4U 58F

3/22/2006 7:39 am

I know a few people who have tried to separate, yet remain under the same roof. It seems to be an impossible situation. When it's over, it's over, but it is incredibly painful for one partner to watch the other "move on" in terms of relationships. In my opinion, sharing details is absolutely the wrong thing to do. Breaking up is so painful...doing it under the same roof is akin to being in labour for a month....

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