Down time  

rm_kymlee3 43F
71 posts
12/7/2005 11:10 pm

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3/16/2006 1:49 am

Down time


Hello everyone. I know that you are all probably tired of hearing my sob stories, but I have yet another one. I just lost my father and my life is going to be really topsy turvy for a while, so if you write to me, please don't be upset if I can't respond.

I truly appreciate all the comments and advice that you all have been giving me. It's nice to see that people truly do read what I am writing. I hope that I will be able to write a little more about what has been going on with my life soon and that it will be on a more up note.

I will be glad when this year is finally finished. It has taken a lot out of me and from me, but I know that I am a strong person and I will clear yet another mountain in my life and be able to look back and see that it wasn't as tough as I thought. I know that I have a lot more mountains to climb before I am through with everything and I hope that I can enjoy the climbs a little more...at least know where to put my feet so that I don't slip and think that it is impossible.

I don't mean to be on a downer, but I was very close to my dad. He was a great man and a solid lifeline. I know that he is watching over me right now and is proud of me that I see this as yet another challenge and that I won't just curl into a ball and give up on everything. I did that earlier this year when my husband walked out and I lost my job. I thought that my life was over, but I found that it is just a new beginning for me and that I will be happier soon enough and that I will be able to accomplish anything I put my mind to accomplish. I hope that you all will forgive me for being absent for a while and that you will still continue to read my blogs when I have time to write them. My mom really needs me right now and I know that most of you understand that no matter what, family is the most important thing in life.

I always looked at her as being strong and I thought I took after her a lot in that respect, but I know that sometimes the person that is always strong sometimes needs someone else to be strong and help them. It has taken me some time to figure this out, but I think I can finally say that I get the message. I need to be strong and get my head out my ass and take care of the important things in life. The most important thing right now is taking care of my mom. I felt so lost and angry and sad yesterday, but today I know that everything will be okay and that it is my time to do what I know I have in me to do.
Someone said to me that God only gives us as much as He knows we can handle and this year I have really been loaded, but I sort of believe this too. I know that I can handle this and that I can take care of not only myself, but my family too. I don't have any children and I think that God planned that for me because He knew that I was going to have this to take care of and that I was going to be single and that I wouldn't be able to take care of kids and my mom right now.

Well, take care everyone and thanks again for all the great comments and advice. Please don't stop reading and posting messages. Maybe all this will help someone else. I hope so, but at the sametime I hope that nobody else has to go through the same things that I have. I don't wish that for anyone. It has all helped me grow as a person, and for that, I am grateful. Take care of eachother because as I have just really started to find out, life is short and it is too hard to go around being sad and angry all the time. It takes a lot out of you and if we could all just learn to take care of eachother and smile, then I think that we as a society can grow and become even better people.

Anyway, thanks again and take care...I will write again soon.

byte22880 36M

12/8/2005 5:10 pm

*HUG* I'm sorry for your loss Kym. E-mail me if you need an ear.


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