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A little beHind
A little beHind
Well not much new here. So haven't written. Just been busy being a caregiver that I am. My male friend is here still detoxed but not well. He has started back in AA and is seeking help fo his addiction. I pray that someone can help him more than I can. It is a shame that his life is so messed up. He has alot of potential but he has lost his self confidence. He is a very loving sweet father, nice looking, great in bed (we have but not this time around), and just wants to be "normal". What is normal? Who is normal? Am I normal? I feel like I am abby normal. Don't much care to be normal either. I wouldn't want to be a robot, with routines, and doing the same thing the same way all the time. If that is normal they can keep it. To me normal should be wild, energized, active, and ready for the moment, whatever it may bring. I have recently been chastised by a few guys for being who I am. I don't understand it. Isn't that why they were interested to begin with. I have been told "you are over the top", "I read your blog and you're pussy has been too many places.", "I am not interested anymore because you will do anyone.". But that is not so. First I will not do anyone. I am choosy about who I am with. I want to be friends first then see. I have alot of friends and I do not fuck all of them. Yes I enjoy sex to the max. But I am human, and female, and feeling. If I could do it with anyone then hell I may as well get paid for it. But I am not interested in that type of relationships. Well, then you have the guys who thier profile indicates that they are here only for sex. So why is that ok and why contact me. I don't think my profile indicates that I would be happy with one night stands. So anyway, back to the question of normal. What, when, where, and how can a normal person ever fit in? Maybe I should just worry about me for once.
7/23/2005 8:12 am
First, I applaud you in helping your friend. I have been on the fringe of such experiences before, and it's NEVER easy to watch someone you care about self-destruct.|
That being said, I love your question. First, relevent to him, normal is being in a place in your life where you can function without the help of others. Now, of course, everyone needs help now and then, but within reason. Like I said, having been there on the fringe, I will dare not preach - I don't have right. But your friend needs to pick himself up, and it's great that he has a friend like yourself to help him. However, as scary as it seems, there is a time that comes with some people when you look at them and say, "I can't do this anymore. If you go down one more time, you lie where you land and I'm walking away." Believe it or not, I've seen that be the statement from a friend that has turned peoples lives around. Once they know the net is gone, jumping off the roof doesn't seem like such a great idea.
Stepping back however, what is normal? I know a girl who almost everyone she's been with has told her, "You're too much, you're more than I expected!" THe first time I was with her I was like, "She's awesome." I felt sorry for the men who could not appreciate what she brought to a relationship, both in and out of the bedroom.
Normal unfortunately is subject to everyone's interptation. I do not consider myself normal, am glad I am not, and make no apologies for it. I'm wish I understood why a guy can post a sex profile on this site and list all his many conquests and that appears to be OK, but a woman does it and all of a sudden, "her pussy has been to many places." Guys I think sometimes believe that women just lie around their whole lives waiting for them - yeah, right!
Anyway, I run into women of a similiar vain on this site. But just looking around, this site (to me) seems to be more geared towards people who enjoy sex and are looking for relationships that have a strong sexual bond. If you appear not to be that type of person, I think there are other places you'd fit in better. So next time a guy busts on you about having too active of a sex life, just point him in the direction of Eharmony, where I'm sure he'll find a nice boring wife.
As too your last question. Only you can decide when it's time to worry about yourself, but for my 2 cents, I wouldn't worry at all about being normal. Just be yourself. The men you're with will appreciate more in the long run, and so will you...
<Raises his beer> Here's to not being normal...