Wedding Guest  

rm_kellijo1169 47F
19 posts
5/21/2006 7:55 am

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5/22/2006 8:27 pm

Wedding Guest

My son and I went to a wedding last night at the Ritz Carlton in Orlando. Not a lot of people, beautiful outside ceremony, coctail hour with open bar and waiters/waitresses walking around with little food stuff, and a dude playing piano. He jazzed up "Every rose has it's thorns". Even with it being a little more upbeat than the original, not sure it was an appropriate song for a wedding, but anyway....

Go into the reception "dinner" and went thru all the normal wedding stuff - introduce bridal party, bring in newlyweds, first dance... and then they started serving dinner.... If you've never been to an affair at the Ritz Carlton and you want to see Excellent Service - find an event to get invited to and go! Music, food, champagne, dancing...

Got a phone call halfway thru the reception from someone who was once very special in my life. Apparently, something in the tone of my voice told him I was bothered by something. I tried to play it off and said we'd talk later when I wasn't so surrounded by people. He called back half an hour later to tell me "It's later".

Ok, all of this brings me to a point - really it does...

I've been single now for about a year and a half. I never was single until about a year and a half ago (was married young, divorced and into a 10 year relationship very shortly there after)Sitting there listening to the bride and groom take their vows, I found myself pondering what those vows really mean and if they can really keep them. I starting thinking about all the times I'm alone and lonely or bored. Then I started thinking about all the stuff I'm missing being with someone on a daily basis. Will I ever know passion again? Will I ever know what it feels like to come home to family and actually have people glad that I'm there? Will I ever know what it feels like to have your child cuddle up next to you "just because"? (my son's too old for this. It's not cool, ya know! Now I'm just a bank. lol!) Will I ever find someone who can tell by the tone of my voice that maybe I just need a hug and actually give it because they just want to make me feel better? Will I ever have the perfect blend of someone who can:
hold on, but not squeeze.
let go, but bring back
gentlemen, but a bad boy
open to new things, but not reckless
happy to see me, but not feel obligated
let me do little things for them, but not take it for granted

I sure hope so. Until then, keep on keepin' on and appreciate the people in your life now. Every person you meet brings something to your life and can teach you more about yourself. Everything happens for a reason, whether you know what it is or not.

angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
5/21/2006 8:49 am

I hope so too....for you! And you are right that everything happens for a reason.

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