Runner's knee, insanity, and faith - pt 2  

rm_justin22tn 33M
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11/18/2005 3:09 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Runner's knee, insanity, and faith - pt 2


Too make a long story short, I stopped doing dope and drinking. I stopped hanging out with people who were still doing dope and drinking. I started running again.

After a couple weeks, I was able to easily run five miles in record time. I was running every day. And then my right knee-cap fell off.

Well, maybe it didn't actually fall off. It might as well have. The prognosis: No more running for at least a few weeks. After this, a slow a painful process of stretching and strengthening excercises.

I was able to go one week without running. My knee started to feel fine, and i decided it was time to give it a try. I ran three miles. When I was done, I felt great for exactly 35 seconds. Then my kneecap exploded into a bloody mass of twisted fibers and gore. Again, I went overboard with the description... but it wasn't good.

My life started to seem terribly unfair at this point.

When I had first lost my job, I had no motivation to do anything to better myself or pull myself out of my glorious binge of drugs and self-pity.
Now that I had the motivation and willpower, my legs stopped working.

For me, running is so much more than a form of excercise. Running is freedom. It is focus, and mental victory. It is a battle against all fear, and the triumph of the spirit. It is... you know, really great.

Now I found myself with a terrible need to run, but no way to do so. I felt like an eagle with a broken wing and a bad case of the Mondays.

I do realize that things could be worse, and I should count my blessings, blah blah blah, yap yap yap. I should be thankful I am not one of the millions of blind, deaf, and mute torsos in the world. At least I have limbs. That is something to be thankful for, right? Right.

But I still felt like I was losing it. I tried one of those "crosstrainers" at the gym, hoping it wouldn't hurt my knee. It did.

I tried the excercise bike with no better luck.

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