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What happened 2 Me?
What happened 2 Me?
I dont know how or exactly when it happened,but I guess I have to admit that it did.Somehow I got tricked into growing up.My lifestyle used to be "Play Now Pay Later",anymore it seems like"I would love to play,but whats it gonna cost me", sad huh? This personally tragic realization hit me square in the face when I mentioned to a friend that I was looking forward to going to the Mardi Gras celebration in my town,(biggest in the country since Katrina,always BIG FUN before),and she said,"You're just gonna get into trouble,and its way too crowded".Now instead of feeling sorry for her for being so unadventurous,I actually thought "Yeah maybe you're right" and began to talk myself out of it.
What happened to me and where can I get myself fixed?There has to be a way to "grow up" by accepting my always dreaded responsibilities,and considering possible consequences my immediate actions may have on my or my childrens future,without growing "old" or afraid.While time may wear us down physically,emotionally,or many other ways,it also enhances us with knowledge,and experience that translates into Wisdom.Its that hard-earned wisdom that I used to remind myself that the most of the best times of my life started out with "That could be fun".We only get so much time its what you do with it that makes up what becomes our lives.You're only livin if its still fun otherwise you're just doin time,and that to me is whats sad, wastin priceless time worrying about what might happen to a life that ultimately wasnt really "lived" or enjoyed because you cant have fun if you're worried about it.That is why I had to write this shit down,so that I could turn time spent on useless thought into something hopefully productive,and thereby exorcise my life-stealing worry demons.Who cares if i'm feelin older if i'm still havin fun?You only live til you die,so if it feels good do it!
Sorry if you were one of the people who read all the way through thinkin its might contain something worth reading,maybe next time,this was just my long winded way of saying "I'm goin to Mardi Gras for some fuckered up fun.Let the Good Times Roll!