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Mermaidslut 49F

7/10/2006 3:18 am

Sometimes therapists need therapy, because they have not only their pain but the pain of those they are trying to heal to deal with as well. Cutting, and seeking abuse of physical punishment are ways of trying to take the emotional pain, and making it real so someone else can see it and give you sympathy for your wounds...

a playful spanking is one thing, to work our power issues in a relationship.... being tied up and tickled by someone you want to work out trust issues with is another.. choked until gasping, been there done that and I can assure you it is not really something I would ever submit to willingly ... pretty hard to fight against your own angst when you are advertising it is what you want so obviously you won't have the same fight in you as someone who doesnt want that type of scene. If you really "wanted" it, I suppose you would be in the bad section of town, getting drunk and walking around half dressed so I have to diagnose what you really want is attention, and freedom from the pain inside you somewhere.

Bruises and cuts on your body, may release blood but ultimately they do nothing but give you a permanent reminder of the pain deep in your soul that does not escape through the open flesh wound.

Mermaidslut 49F

7/10/2006 3:25 am

You can also learn to channel your anger, and analtical skills into a more broader scope that helps you makes a diference beyond your own skin... by getting involved in helping stop the abuse of others with your skills, Breast Ironing

I find it particulalry works well for me, when I am self deprecating to much and want to hurt myself to deal with the pain deep inside.

Mermaidslut 49F

7/10/2006 12:07 pm

okay, just was worried about the need for validating your pain, have fun

UrFuckBud 60M
323 posts
7/12/2006 10:14 am

Its sometimes difficult to come to terms with the hidden things within ourselves. BDSM is just one outlet that can be extraordinarily difficult to explain to someone who "doesn't get it"

At the same time, to someone who does get it, but doesn't want a 24/7 lifestyle, you can get the same reaction from people within the community.

Another form of therapy, for me, getting outside. In the woods, away from people or with a friend, or out in the water. Someplace where you can experience some moments of silence, the breeze, and the sky.

As far as pain, I've found myself attracted to people who I have no interest in, if their need is great. That was something that surprised me.

Explore, communicate, play safe, stay sane.
Relax and be at peace.


PS. Out to Madison this Sunday for 10 days. Will be Christy's Monday night. Looking for someone to splash the following weekend. See Mad City post.

vrec_dawn 39M

7/13/2006 4:36 pm

Okay, I'm not sure why I'm posting this. I'm not sure I want to. But it keeps coming back to me, so I guess I should do it anyway? But, umm ... I can't help but get vibes here from that post that resonate with something that disturbed me in my past and, hmm ... well, could have made my life go in one of two very different ways. I know which way I went, and it seems like you went the other. I don't know. Maybe I'm totally wrong there. And certainly not that either way is good or bad. Just that if I'm right, I'm sorry that whatever happened happened, even if it made you the cool person that you are today and you're okay with it. I don't know if that made any sense, but, well, that's me, or life, or something. So just, umm, ignore or shoot me now.

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