My Sleepless Weekend  

rm_hotmamaNcols 39F
460 posts
5/22/2006 6:16 pm

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My Sleepless Weekend


Oh, what a wonderful weekend I had!! Nevermind that it is now Monday evening and I haven't slept since I woke up Friday morning... These 2 and 3 day spells of sleeplessness only happen twice a month. Which BTW is a huge improvement from twice a week. Can you imagine only sleeping 4 hours a night, 3 nights a week? I don't know how I managed to stay sane then.

The side effects are crazy. You experience a vast array from one extreme to the next. At times, I'll have a short fuse, be in a bad mood, be tired and lathargic. At other times, I'm giddy, energized, and feel compelled to laugh at everything even during serious moments. I can't recall the simplest things, like mental notes when I'm having an episode. And at times I've been so tired and unable to sleep that it has driven me to tears.

Take sleeping pills you say? Ha. I already experience enough side effects from no sleep, the last thing I need is more from medications.
Believe it or not, I've managed well without sleeping pills. I took them at first but felt "cloudy" the next day. I didn't like not remembering periods of time. One time, I drove home and didn't remember the entire drive. Its much like snapping your fingers and one minute you are at work in the parking lot, the next you are home sitting in your driveway. A bunch of what ifs with no certainty. A scary thought isn't it? I would rather exhaust myself in exercise... As for the root of my insomnia, only a handful of you guys know why. Shit, it's self explanatory.

Anyhow, Friday night I had a Poker meet. It's illegal around here to play for money. So rules(loop holes) are set and we all have code names which we use at the table. Mine is "Munster", as in Lily Munster. Funny how nicknames are acquired. At the time I had long black hair down to my ass. I was given a choice: Elvira or Munster. I don't have the boobs so I chose the latter.

Saturday morning, I had a thousand dollars in my fist when I began with just 75. Even if I hadn't won, it is great fun to drink tequila, smoke cigars, and talk shit. Saturday evening, I watched Kill Bill volume one and two, and Dances with Wolves after cleaning house. It was Sunday morning before I knew it.

Sunday, I thought I was ready for sleep. I was WRONG. My mind races with thoughts which I'm sure is the the result of not thinking over the weekend. Every thought is specific, from whether I've completed enough chores to what my body is telling me. Kind of like a circuit/information overload right before the crash.

Now it is Monday and after 8 pm. I better listen to my friend Slim or I'll pay tomorrow morning.


Jeepidiot 42M

5/22/2006 6:31 pm

I use to be able to stay up for days at a time but not anymore. I need as much sleep as I can or I'll go crazy. At least you appeared to have something to do while you weren't sleeping.

It's illegal to play for money??? You'd think they cops would have something better to do than bust some friends playing poker. Of course when my friends and I played poker it was just with quarters. Apparently you were playing one of those games run by the Mafia.


rm_hotmamaNcols replies on 5/22/2006 6:45 pm:
It's fun to play with friends and family, but there is no money in it. No, the Mafia doesn't run this one. Its a private club. 5 a hand as the anty keeps the bullshitters away. We have a large group three tables, winner takes all. Most of us bring less than a hundred a piece. Some show up with under 30 dollars and manage to go to the last table. It's like Bingo, really. Skills and luck, I suppose.

out_for_a_ride 35M

5/23/2006 1:49 am

you didn't sound like a bitch in your response to my last post, in fact you are dead on that most people need the negativity spewed back because they are so deep in it that an aggressive bitch out is the only way to plant a seed of thought for growth...so long as you understand that you have to burden a backlash of sorts, by all means. as for this post, insomnia sucks...i work a graveyard shift for this reason alone. ever been up so many days in a row you're a walking zombie. i'd say a walking ghost cause you feel more like a ghost mentally (like you're there but you're not) but then you start walking into shit because even though your eyes may take in the information, your brain isn't processing it quick enough to direct your motor skills to walk around the car (or whatevers in front of you) until well after you've hit it. definitely zombie-ish? and sleeping pills do leave you feeling all groggy and cloudy mentally even though you know you just slept deeper and longer than you've slept in a while. i used to take a quarter of a zanax and that shit had me all befuddled in the morning, i don't know how other people take those things. personally, i'll smoke some pot and use the "crash" from my high to fall asleep now. that'd be the only suggestion i could make for your sleeplessness, but what i do is what i do, and i wouldn't try and convince anyone else it'd work for them. that could be sending them down the wrong path for all i know, and i don't ever want that on my suggestion. ya know?


rm_hotmamaNcols replies on 5/23/2006 9:51 am:
I stay away from weed. I am part of that small percentage that has adverse effects from it. I'm paranoid, chaotic, and argumentative on it. It doesn't relax me in the least.

out_for_a_ride 35M

5/23/2006 1:53 am

fuck!!! i was so eager to start rambling on about insomnia that i totally didn't finish reading the post!!! fucking poker is the shit...gambling, smoking, drinking, all for a rush as good as sex!!!! that's whats up. so is kill bill. and apparently you do know how to crash yourself...information overload baby!!!!!


rm_hotmamaNcols replies on 5/23/2006 9:53 am:
Oh, and I tried to "read" myself to sleep.... uh-uh nope. Books keep me up too. Physical exhaustion is the only thing that works. Sucks ass.

elbman 41M  
2566 posts
5/23/2006 2:26 am

<----Rambling Narcoleptic Traveler......I'll get plenty of sleep when I'm dead.


rm_hotmamaNcols replies on 5/23/2006 9:53 am:
My sentiments exactly....

Scoundrel74 42M
1 post
5/23/2006 4:44 am

Hey! I live on 4 hours sleep every night! Survive? Hmm....function? Well, whatever is right below functioning on 4 hours sleep every night is what I do. Malfunctioning?

This is the last blog I'm reading before I head to work to go malfunction and I wanted to thank you for your charm and wit. Too funny. I'm happy to say that when folks see my laughing to myself today, it won't just be from the lack of sleep.

Ciao!


rm_hotmamaNcols replies on 5/23/2006 9:55 am:
Me too. Four hours is plenty. I'm glad you enjoyed my blog. Visit again soon.

jd29992z 54M
3888 posts
5/23/2006 12:49 pm

That is so sad you can't sleep much I have a hard time but at least I can get 5 hours a night. Have you asked a Dr. about it there may be some imbalance in your system you never know. And if you go you have to insist on finding out why not just let them push the new drugs they have to sell. Once for work I had to stay awake for 56 hours that was a trip it felt like I was on some sort of drug. Then when I went to ed I could not fall asleep. Well see you girl JD


rm_hotmamaNcols replies on 5/23/2006 4:03 pm:
I know exactly why I can't sleep. Don't worry, I won't be a sucker and accept any old thing the doctor pushes my way. I have this adversion to taking pills, even aspirin. I don't take anything unless it is absolutely necessary.

out_for_a_ride 35M

5/24/2006 1:59 am

i'm with you, no drugs...unless they can be grown (which isn't like you) but i know what you mean. one of my friends used to get violent, i mean violent when we'd be gettin high, which i didn't understand cause i'm all about feeling the grass in between my toes and shit like that. lol. but anyhow, yep, books keep me wide awake too. in fact the first time i read the da vinci code was by accident. i couldn't sleep one night, and i'd heard all this great shit about the book, so i looked at the size of it and was like if i start this i'll be out in ten minutes......7 hours later i was finishing it...that fucking sucked...though it was a great book, hope you have better luck sleeping tonight, peace.

b


rm_hotmamaNcols replies on 5/24/2006 7:13 am:
getting hooked to a book sucks ass... especially if it's so good you don't want to put it down. As for getting high and getting VIOLENT, dude your friend has issues.... my advice to him is put down the blunt, and walk away, slowly

slimcountryboy2 38M
46 posts
5/24/2006 5:50 am

I hope you got some sleep hotmama


rm_hotmamaNcols replies on 5/24/2006 7:14 am:
I did. thanks

out_for_a_ride 35M

5/24/2006 10:03 pm

LOL, oh he's definitely put it down! and yes, he definitely has issues, but most of them come from feeling victimized which is where i think the anger comes from. like he gets too trapped inside his victim mindset and it builds until he can't contain it....or something...ah, but i love him. he's a good guy otherwise. sorry for the mini conversation here, i'll go on to your recent post now.


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