Sweetest Day Lies....  

rm_hotNnawty 47F
17 posts
10/15/2005 7:29 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Sweetest Day Lies....

Here we are..the wonderfully, dreaded Sweetest Day....2 days before my birthday. Boy this day is funny...I awoke to the sweetest, nicest, kindest man..wanting to fullfil my every need...problem being that this "wonderful" man is the same mean, cross, angry, moody, arrogant, self absorbed man that I have been married to for 14 years. He hands me a card that reads something like this.."I know that I can be an ass..but I love you....I know that you try not to piss me off, but I love you....I know that you are really smarter than you portray, but I love you...I know that you love me as much as I love you, thats why I love you".... How someone can take a beautiful card and then write stuff in there like that is beyond me. Shows how selfish he is..and how clueless he is to what is really going on here. Months of cruel words, and argueing, and screaming...all made better in his mind by a simple card with a few written words.
Am I sounding selfish?? Am I the one sounding ungrateful?? Really..Im just speaking from my heart. He knows when he fucks up...and then he tries to make it better by buying my forgiveness...like the wonderful concert tickets he purchased for my birthday. I love them..and I am so excited about going...but it doesnt make me feel closer to him. Too many years of hurtful words....too much time gone by with broken promises...too many threats...too many tears...

...No, Im not complaining...just sharing my feelings. It would be so amazing to share this special day with the guy closest to my heart...the guy that makes me feel good about myself and fills me with laughter and joy. Too bad he has another "sweetest" who gets to share his evening and nights, his quiet moments, and the moment that they fall asleep side by side...close enough to breath each other in...close enough to hear his heart as he falls off to sleep. Someday......

(greg )

10/15/2005 8:10 am

Hi happy sweetest day !)!)!) hope the sunshine make you glow alittle.
It's still early and you might still catch a smile. You deserve it.
Greg digitydig

AughtMusedSpill 48M

10/15/2005 9:15 am

Did that card really say that? Amazing...what an asshat.

rm_hotNnawty 47F

10/15/2005 5:28 pm

yep...that is what he wrote in the card...such a nice fellow. Sometimes I cant believe how blonde I am!! Thanks for the response..you have a great smile.

ShrugComfyLakes 55M
2 posts
10/16/2005 6:20 am

Wishing i were the guy you wanted to fall asleep with so i could feel your breath on my face as we held eachother close

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