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Today is a beautiful sunny day; as was yesterday. Yesterday I turned off the cell phone, ignored the hoome phone and stayed away from my computer. Yesterday was a day for me. A day to relax and enjoy fresh air. Play with my dog and when she got tired just curl up on the couch with her and watch a movie.
Don't get many days like that... hope to have more soon. Maybe treat myself to a round of golf.... after my back feels better!
Warmt of spring is coming summer to follow. Heat and humidity Yuk!! Wishing I was back in the mountains.... the breeze cooling from the snow capped peaks as the first flowers of spring awaken, the bears coming out of hibernation in search of food and a mate for the upcoming year.
MIssing the wonders of life and new love... why is new love so much better than old? Why do we slide into the boredom of a relationship? Why is only one partner willing to try... to try and be exciting, adventurous? Always saying they are willing to be open minded but when fantasies revealed they are horrified of the thoughts.... why?
Why should I feel this way on a glorious sunny day.......
4/25/2006 3:44 pm
Good for you. Seems I only get to shut everything off when I'm sick or out of the country. Guess that's a choice I make. Love the changing of the seasons now more than I used to. Still a summer girl - heat & humidity...bring it on. but now finally appreciating the other seasons with a passion I never had before.|
Its too easy to slide into the boredom of a relationship....get caught up in the details of day to day life and choose to let them take over your time, energy, passion til there's nothing left for your self, let alone your partner.
The fantasies can be scary if you don't know what you really like or want. Maybe intimidating is a better word here. Sometimes thinking a thing isn't the same as doing a thing. One is pretend and safe, the other has the potential to take you many places you may not be fully prepared/ready to go. Some things are best left in the head (see my profile fantasy for prime example). Thinking more on it...about it, maybe women are just more insecure and/or unsure about who they are and what they want.
Little boys are told not to play with themselves in public, little girls are told to not touch themselves at all. Maybe that's why we blossom so much later. Men are comfortable in their own skin from an early age, and women learn it later, if they're lucky enough to overcome the media hype that nothing about them is good enough. Trust me, pick up a women's mag and read for 10 min - you'll start to feel ugly inside. And that's just one example.
But I digress....its a cool day today, amidst several warm days. The lilacs are blooming, tulips mostly spent, birds nesting. The promise of Spring is realized...hibernations are over, the search for a mate begins anew.