Feeling beautiful this morning, threesomes, scents  

rm_funinic 48M
562 posts
4/15/2006 8:36 am

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Feeling beautiful this morning, threesomes, scents

I slept in a beautiful place last night. The anxiety I had been feeling, concerned that I had crossed the line from erotic to contrived with my recent posts, was released and I dreamed for the first time in many days of something other than the problems in my life. Words cannot express the relief and thanks I badly need to send through these pages...

I was going to post my words about threesomes as a comment in response to an intense poem on another blog, but I can't hijack her blog that way. I want that place, especially that post, to remain undisturbed by my unfocused rambling.

The one time I was in a threesome (MFM) we two men were not comfortable with each other. It could have been more intense for all if he had been less focused on NOT touching me. I wasn't looking for a bi experience, just less obvious distaste. So close...

I wish I could write with experience about the inverse of that night (FMF), but all I have are my fantasies. I can only imagine the sensations. I'm not sure if I could sleep with two sirens calling me from so close.

I've got time, I am patient, it is worth waiting for the right lovers and savor that night when it happens.

I looked up the scents I've chosen for my new life. I never had any appetite for deliberately adding scents to my life, just masking what others (and society...) told me were unacceptable.

Jasmine, Orange, Lavender...

How did I end up choosing, by scent at the store, these?

Romance, energy, relaxation..

Until I'd already bought the candles, massage oil and warmer, and soap, I hadn't done any research on what their "meanings" were. I bought the candles many weeks ago, and the feeling of walking into a rejuvenating refuge from my life's pain became powerful. I decided to plunge my whole body into that sensation, or at least try.

I used the jasmine soap last time I showered before I slept. I put a few drops of jasmine and orange massage oil into the warmer and lit the candle, used some of the warm oil for solo erotic hedonism, and left the traces in the warmer to release their scent in to the room. That night was unfortunately many days ago, but I do remember waking feeling love instead of loneliness.

I'll try the massage oil the next time I shave.

I used to massage mineral oil into my legs after shaving when I raced bicycles. I think there is no more erotic a sensation than gently caressing skin with warm hands after a relaxing shower. Shaving is incidental (not to say that it's any less intense, just a separate experience and act of worship of the body) but enhances the experience, it merely gets the hair out of the way for this act of hedonism.

I'd prefer to have someone else in that ritual, as I would prefer to perform this act of worship on another person. For now I'll just have to settle for the lesser pleasure I have.


rm_funinic 48M
823 posts
4/15/2006 11:21 am

I used the lavender before ... this time in my life. I still like the smell, but right now it evokes too many memories.

The candles are Jasmine and Orange, the soap is Jasmine, and the massage oil is light scented essential oil with Jasmine and Orange. I bought the soap and oil at a local shop that mixed the oil for me.

All these things are firsts for me in my new life. I inted to make them part of the rest of my life.

I'll have to whiff a scent of lilac and see how I respond...


rm_funinic 48M
823 posts
4/16/2006 1:10 am

I will be buying a bar of lilac soap on Monday.

Where the wind blows, I'll go. Not because I'm following the wind but because it's carrying me with it.

If some women find lilac erotic, then I need to learn why... I can't believe I've put so much effort into learning about sex and totally missed scent until now.


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