Heartbroken...  

rm_fluffy19747 41M/39F
63 posts
6/28/2006 2:01 pm

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7/9/2006 12:57 pm

Heartbroken...


I miss my mammy

amber3471 45F

6/29/2006 12:42 am

Awww fluffs you ok hun, Ive been living with mine past few days shes a tower of strength for me and dont know what i would do without her, Im finding it hard to go home she wont come with me mams are very special, always there when needed and when they are not around I cant bring myself to imagine that. But Im here for ye hun

Axx


irishandopen

6/29/2006 7:40 am

Why now babes, hope your ok


rm_fluffy19747 41M/39F
512 posts
6/29/2006 8:44 am

Aw tnx u 2!! I'd been rooting in a press and found something of mams that i'd forgotten i had, a bottle of her perfume, smelled it & it made me cry!!

Mam is dead over 8yrs now and it feels like it just happened yesterday. My heart broke that day, and i dont think i've ever been the same since! (crying now)

She was sick all thru our childhood, since i was 7, and i used to hate her for it... All my friends were doin stuff that i wanted to do, but instead i was stuck home, doin the things mammys do. I was the mother in the house, lookin after my mother as if she was a child. It was only as i got older, i understood things better. We were bestest friends, had secrets from dad!! When we'd fight i used to plug out the battery on her wheelchair til she'd apologise!!!! And she had this long bamboo stick, the lenght of the kitchen, that she'd threaten us with!
She detested my first serious b/f, which made me want him more, i couldnt stand the fkr, but i was stubborn!
Then her medication went against her, she got sicker & sicker, bed-ridden, and in the end it was a blessing that she went...
I finished work that day at 3, got to the hospital at 3.40 and she was gone by 3.55...
I miss her soooooo much, wish she was here to see her 3 grandkids, they all have her eyes. Wish she'd been at my wedding, wish she was here with me now and i'd show her the filth u "preverts" come out with!!
Home isnt home without my mam, dads great but not the same! Theres so much we never got to talk abt, but some day, when its my turn, i hope she'll be there waitin for me and i'm goin to give her the biggest hug EVER!
Sorry if i've depressed anyone, but thats how i feel every single day...

xXx L xXx


irishandopen

6/29/2006 9:09 am

((((()))) she is still with you every day honey and u can talk to here anytime you want. She might not answer you in a way that u can hear with your ears but if u listen with your heart you will hear her talking loud and clear. x


rm_madred006 45M
438 posts
6/29/2006 11:21 am

if u want to chat im here u tc hope ur ok


rm_fluffy19747 41M/39F
512 posts
6/29/2006 11:34 am

    Quoting amber3471:
    Awww fluffs you ok hun, Ive been living with mine past few days shes a tower of strength for me and dont know what i would do without her, Im finding it hard to go home she wont come with me mams are very special, always there when needed and when they are not around I cant bring myself to imagine that. But Im here for ye hun

    Axx
Tnx bitch
Make the most of ur mam amber, ur very lucky

xXx L xXx


rm_fluffy19747 41M/39F
512 posts
6/29/2006 11:36 am

    Quoting irishandopen:
    ((((()))) she is still with you every day honey and u can talk to here anytime you want. She might not answer you in a way that u can hear with your ears but if u listen with your heart you will hear her talking loud and clear. x
babes
Thats a whole other story, if u heard that u'd have me sectioned!

xXx L xXx


snugglehugs 50F
54 posts
6/29/2006 6:00 pm

Awwwww Fluffs- I lost my mum in November last year and still miss here so much. She was my best friend and helped me raise my beautiful 21 year old daughter. She had alzheimers and the real mum died a few years ago so we kinda lost her twice but i loved her so dearly that it hurts. But we laugh about her and smile about her every day. She lives in my heart and will never really dieXXXX


rm_fluffy19747 41M/39F
512 posts
6/29/2006 8:07 pm

    Quoting snugglehugs:
    Awwwww Fluffs- I lost my mum in November last year and still miss here so much. She was my best friend and helped me raise my beautiful 21 year old daughter. She had alzheimers and the real mum died a few years ago so we kinda lost her twice but i loved her so dearly that it hurts. But we laugh about her and smile about her every day. She lives in my heart and will never really dieXXXX
Snuggs, thats such a sad and beautiful comment!
My mam knew what was happening right till the end, which made it worse, but i know she's abt, i feel her! Spend alot of time talking to her, waiting for a reply, and u know what? Its amazing she hasnt jumped out and scared the crap outta me, cos she was evil!!!!!!

xXx L xXx


rm_gata11459 57F
10597 posts
6/29/2006 9:01 pm

fluffs.. she left an incredible gift for us all too.. and i thank her for it xoxo love you hun xoxo k

Peace xxx K


rm_fluffy19747 41M/39F
512 posts
7/1/2006 9:57 pm

    Quoting DustyWidget:
    Lost mine in March so still very raw with me. So sorry. My dad died in 1979 and I don't like being an orphan.

    Big hugs! xx

    Welcome to the Blogs.
Dusty, u were very lucky to have ur mam for so long! I'm envious, even jealous of that
Tnx and welcome to my blogg, ur very welcome

xXx L xXx


rm_fluffy19747 41M/39F
512 posts
7/1/2006 9:59 pm

    Quoting rm_mzhunyhole:
    I miss mine too..I feel ya hun..my mama has been gone since I was 20..that was 35 years ago..
aw mzhuny, tnx babes


rm_fluffy19747 41M/39F
512 posts
7/1/2006 10:01 pm

    Quoting rm_gata11459:
    fluffs.. she left an incredible gift for us all too.. and i thank her for it xoxo love you hun xoxo k
Gata, i lurrrrves ya

xXx L xXx


amber3471 45F

7/9/2006 8:56 am

    Quoting rm_fluffy19747:
    Aw tnx u 2!! I'd been rooting in a press and found something of mams that i'd forgotten i had, a bottle of her perfume, smelled it & it made me cry!!

    Mam is dead over 8yrs now and it feels like it just happened yesterday. My heart broke that day, and i dont think i've ever been the same since! (crying now)

    She was sick all thru our childhood, since i was 7, and i used to hate her for it... All my friends were doin stuff that i wanted to do, but instead i was stuck home, doin the things mammys do. I was the mother in the house, lookin after my mother as if she was a child. It was only as i got older, i understood things better. We were bestest friends, had secrets from dad!! When we'd fight i used to plug out the battery on her wheelchair til she'd apologise!!!! And she had this long bamboo stick, the lenght of the kitchen, that she'd threaten us with!
    She detested my first serious b/f, which made me want him more, i couldnt stand the fkr, but i was stubborn!
    Then her medication went against her, she got sicker & sicker, bed-ridden, and in the end it was a blessing that she went...
    I finished work that day at 3, got to the hospital at 3.40 and she was gone by 3.55...
    I miss her soooooo much, wish she was here to see her 3 grandkids, they all have her eyes. Wish she'd been at my wedding, wish she was here with me now and i'd show her the filth u "preverts" come out with!!
    Home isnt home without my mam, dads great but not the same! Theres so much we never got to talk abt, but some day, when its my turn, i hope she'll be there waitin for me and i'm goin to give her the biggest hug EVER!
    Sorry if i've depressed anyone, but thats how i feel every single day...

    xXx L xXx
Awww im only goin over old blogs now....after getting to know you bit more (in everyway poss ) you have told me bout yer mam, and i couldnt even begin to understand what you have been through (((hugs)))
But open is makin sense for once and hes right yer mams watchin ye and can hear ye so watch yer fcukin language
So you know where I am you got my number, been in my car (back seat holds fond memories) and my ..... nah better not say here, so you call me hun if you need me anytime

Did i ever tell ye ....nice titties fluffs

Axx


rm_fluffy19747 41M/39F
512 posts
7/9/2006 12:57 pm

    Quoting amber3471:
    Awww im only goin over old blogs now....after getting to know you bit more (in everyway poss ) you have told me bout yer mam, and i couldnt even begin to understand what you have been through (((hugs)))
    But open is makin sense for once and hes right yer mams watchin ye and can hear ye so watch yer fcukin language
    So you know where I am you got my number, been in my car (back seat holds fond memories) and my ..... nah better not say here, so you call me hun if you need me anytime

    Did i ever tell ye ....nice titties fluffs

    Axx
HOLY CHRIST AMBER!

i hope she had her eyes closed at the weekend so
as for u, ur one sexy yoke

xXx L xXx


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