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"We're all the artists of our own minds."
What a hell of a way to present myself. Is it true? A "hell" of a way? Or is it a heaven of a way to present one's self?
Making the decisions in life that are most fulfilling can be tough. So much thought is placed on what "others" may think or do. Honestly, if it doesn't hurt yourself or another, then do it. But... that may be the tricky part.
Is what's happening the best for all involved? This is a generality, sure, but think of a situation you might find yourself in. How might someone else, or yourself, be hurt or helped?
I speak for myself, here, but maybe it will apply to you, as well. Any and every decision made in life can and will affect another. It may not be easily foreseen, the results, the outcome. But there is cause and effect.
I ask myself, even in the smallest task or action "What might happen?"
Now, projecting an outcome, and excessive worry, never helps. Hard to see the future.
This is hard for many. Fears of past pains, insecurities... opening one's self too often means that one has been closed. Closed to what?
What triggered the shut down?
Am I, or are you, in a place of maturity and development where the old pains wont happen again? Are the lessons learned?
A better way to say "open" might be to say "permeable". Experience, then, goes right through. Imagine your mind is a net designed to catch only the good stuff, the stuff you require for a happy, healthy life. The rest, the "bad" stuff, goes right through. It's hard to face, but we do have a choice. Hard to face because we often cling to the old identity, the bad person of who we were, and it can be hard to break old habits.
But, it is a choice. Find out what makes you happy. Seek it out. Court it. Know it's yours, know that it's here and ready to be uncovered.
It takes some courage to be centered and aware of what it is you need. But, it can also be easy. Just let it be. Your gut will tell you. What feels right? What feels good?
Do that. Seek that. Be aware of the feelings and needs of others, and it will be an easy life.
Again, I speak for myself, and maybe it applies to you as well.
Why am I here, on AdultFriendFinder?
Well, the easiest, most base answer would be To Meet Good People And Get Laid. I've been through alot in my life... too much to list here. Periods of intense love, intense hate. Incredible lust. Tired-of-it-all celibacy where I just needed to "find myself" and learn and heal.
Now I'm at a place in my life, at 36, where I know that I know myself, who I am, and what I require. I have a stable heart and mind... I have a good sense of direction in my life, and that means a knowledge of where I've been and who I am, but it also means I'm willingly, happily open to change. I'm curious.
There's a strength here, inside, that allows new experience. Those old wounds are now faint, pink scars, and there's new skin looking for new life.
My artist's budget right now only allows me to be a Standard Member, so this blog is a good way to reach out. If you read this, and want to email me through the site, please do. I'll respond in kind.
As for the blog, come by and say hi. Somedays it'll be light and fun. Somedays, deeper than this.
But it will always be Me.
Not sure who that is sometimes. But I'm good with that, and I'm more than willing to find out.
8/29/2006 5:31 pm
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8/30/2006 1:12 pm
Hi....enjoy the ride!|
9/2/2006 11:34 am
welcome to the blogs i liked what you posted..i'll be back to comment more |
9/2/2006 12:08 pm
Hi five, and welcome to the Blogs |
Very nice post. Made me think. (Not that I like to do that on a weekend when I'm off, mind you.) But, you've brought up very valid points.
I find myself not being able to open up in the beginning. Seems when I do, I end up getting hurt. So, I tend to sit back and observe all around me, first. I'm able to get a better "grasp" of what is going on...
9/4/2006 4:26 pm
you do have an artist's soul|