Ahh... the first post.  

rm_firefly3192 37F
16 posts
5/26/2006 2:13 am

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6/20/2006 4:44 am

Ahh... the first post.

Ok, so I usually feel like I am talking to myself in these, but whatever... I'm a good listener. *wink*

I'm so sick of the bullshit. I am sick of guys who say they are one thing and turn out to be another. I've been with all of 2 guys ever... yes, by choice. One was my best friend, and we had the "lets get it all over with together, since we trust each other"... the other was a horrible one night stand with a guy that was TOTALLY selfish, if you get my drift. I got my ass out of there as soon as I could.

Another guy I just spoke with on-line turned out to be total bullshit. He wasn't where he said he was in the world, he didn't use his own picture, and every thing that came out of his mouth was one big lie. I think I'm a magnet.

The one thing that the last guy made me realize is... I do not have to be with someone to be happy. That realization actually makes looking a lot easier. Instead of the "OMG! I must find someone NOW!" mindset, I have the "I can take my time and find someone who isn't a complete asshole!" mindset.

I may sound bitchy... I'm not. I just got done dealing with bullshit boy a week or so ago, so I am still bitter. Very bitter. I'm not going to let it effect me, but it may come out in my writing.

I know what I want in a guy. I usually don't make any exceptions. Guys are like that... they know what they want, so wtf, so do I. I despise long hair, and I despise facial hair... yes, they can be cut/shaved, but if that is what the guy's preference is, then I am so not interested. I am so sick and tired of old men hitting on me. I can not say it ANY clearer than I did in my profile. EWWWWWW. I am going to be 27. Therefore, I will go down to 25 and up to about 35 (maybe a year or two more, depending). I am not interested in someone who can be friends with my parents.

While I have been described by guys as a BBW, it is all personal preference. I don't see what those guys see, but I guess I don't really need to. Maybe it is because I spend everyday with me, critiquing myself. Even though I am not a small girl (and not HUGE either), I am not interested in big guys. Been there, done that, almost threw up. Ok, that last part was mean... but I was lied to, and was totally surprised when I met this guy. I just am NOT turned on by bigger guys, just like some guys hate bigger girls. So, that is not an option for wiggle room. Let's see... this may sound hypocritical, but I just adore pretty boys. I love guys that are just nice to look at, but also have brains. Everyone has someone that appeals to them for whatever reason... and I am sure that there are a lot of nice guys out there that AREN'T pretty boys, but you know what? I'm allowed to be picky. I want a guy who is just... yum.

Let's see... this is a total option category, but I think a guy who is bi, is a total turn on. Now, I don't mean guys who are "interested in men, and think they have to have a girl there in order to make people not say anything... but REALLY all they want is the guy"... TRUST ME... been there too. I just think being with a guy who is totally okay with being with another guy either in front of me, or with me... hot. Like I said though, this isn't a "MUST" category... I can live with a straight guy just fine. *laughs*

Um, safe sex. I don't like the "well, you have only been with two guys, so I'm not worried" argument... I could care less, I mean, how many people have YOU been with? So, safe sex ONLY ONLY ONLY. Also, I will only be with a non-smoker who is DRUG & DISEASE FREE! Another thing I have been lied to about. I mean, come one... you can't hide smoking... it is smelly, and really apparent. I also don't want to take any risks getting anything. I plan on having kids and a family some day, and I do not want ANY diseases. I have a friend who is HIV positive, that is scary enough... I don't need any up close encounters with that, or anything else.

As for BDSM... I may be a total newbie, but I know things that I am willing to try, and things I am NOT willing to try. I am open to talking about things that I am curious about... why be shy about it? (ok, well, I do get shy, but I will talk about it) I don't want someone who is new. I want to go into this with someone who knows what they are doing. I am a sub, which means I am obviously looking for a dom. I'm opinionated, true, but when it comes down to the actual sex, I am a sub. I know not everyone has a dungeon, or sex room, but that would be cool as hell. I don't know... someone who has been in the scene for 6 months but owns one pair of handcuffs still counts as new to me. I mean, either you are serious about it, or not, right?

Ok, this is freaking long now... and if you made it this far, congrats! I am so tired. 3 AM... I am such a night owl. Hope to hear from people!!

angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
5/26/2006 12:04 pm

Welcome to the blogs! I'm having a sleepover at my blog....wanna cum?

bjsaregreatCO 35M
14 posts
6/11/2006 1:39 am

I'm sorrry you dont like facial hair that rules me out for now I like my goatee, but I do want to say congrats on knowing what you want its a good thing. too many people lie too themselves I think.

rm_cami212 56F
11 posts
11/13/2008 5:54 am

Love the blogs. It's not being picky, it's eliminating everything that you won't tolerate right up front,saving yourself the grief from being constantly subjected to the display and behavior you most dislike in men.

2008....just another page in your diary?


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