Last Supper  

rm_dizzyandfun 48F
1211 posts
10/16/2005 10:02 am

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Last Supper

You were a part of me. Yet, as I watched you across the crisp white linen, the single rose ( the palest of yellow) standing high in its crystal glass, I saw a stranger. I felt the tears building behind my eyes as you fussed, straightening the knife..the plate, the wine glasses. Your waves of anger rolling solidly and without pause relentlessy, unceasingly, towards me.
You didn’t want to talk..only to the waiter who kept your drinks replenished and the ice bucket full.. My words fell on deaf ears and a firmly closed mind. Yours, few and deadly as they were, slowly stripped my soul.
The hum of other conversations around the room seemed to build a pressure in my ears,
just as the stranger before me was building a wall around my heart.
Dinner went untouched.
The bill was paid, the waiter tipped. As he slipped my coat over my shoulders, I clung to its familiarity as a life raft in a dark and stormy sea.
The car felt warm, comfortable, safe. I turned my face to the window and watched the raindrops chase each other time and time again. Or were they my tears??

We reached my gate and looked at each other., both silently crying.We hugged ‒probably the longest, tightest hug we had shared in years.

Once through the gate, I walked for maybe 50 yards, willing myself not to turn around and run back to you. I turned then…watched you as you watched me, the rain a soft misty curtain between us. The car seemed to float as you backed away and slowly disappeared.

Did you ever think that was the last time we would ever see each other? Did I ??


fothey 52F

10/16/2005 1:12 pm

Oh so sad, a hug can say a thousand words without a word even being spoken.


TheQuietGuy2005 54M
2386 posts
10/16/2005 9:59 pm

Oh wow! Dizzy ... I am lost for words. That is heart-rending. Thank you for sharing x


rm_dizzyandfun 48F
752 posts
10/17/2005 1:51 am

Fothey, I guess that one did!! The hug said more than was said over a 4hr dinner !! Too little, too late.

Quiet: its good to get these things out. Closes a door xxx


AlbertPrince 57M

10/17/2005 2:21 am

Well what do you expect if you go to dinner with strangers?


AlbertPrince 57M

10/17/2005 2:22 am

Did I miss the point??


rm_dizzyandfun 48F
752 posts
10/17/2005 8:04 am

Albert, sweetheart, you did miss the point LOL. It was the last time my ex hubby and I ever saw each other. And we re not likely to see each other again either.

Diz xx


fothey 52F

10/17/2005 4:10 pm

dizzy

Try to hold on to the good memories..do not let them go! always good to look back on even though they can hurt.

Fothey xxxx


AmberSolaire 42M

10/19/2005 8:49 pm

I cant do goodbyes.I prefer au revoir even if it doesnt happen.

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10/20/2005 3:35 am

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helga_hansen 49F  
1987 posts
10/21/2005 2:28 pm

Dizzy... so beautifully written... and it reminds me of my final goodbye to someone I had loved since I was 13. I finally let go two years ago... and as my plane soared into the sky, I knew I was never going to see him again.

Hx

Love, hugs and kisses from ♥♥HH♥♥


rm_dizzyandfun 48F
752 posts
10/21/2005 3:20 pm

Helga...worst feeling in the world isnt it ?? Even if you know its for the best. And thanks for the compliment!

Hugs xx

Diz


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