first lover was it also first LOVE???--day 5  

rm_disabled59 57M
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8/12/2006 7:18 am

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first lover was it also first LOVE???--day 5

A few days ago I began this blog to track what would really happen at AdultFriendFinder. Today, I'm going to tell a story of my first lover and now I realize something is the rest of the story as the saying goes. I was working for a major newspaper in the southeast and kept runing into someone from a major radio station in the same metro market our beats seemed to overlap a lot.

The day finally came that we spoke and found out not only did our work but our lives were wound up in the same or similar after hours activities. We began to share these activities and it got to the point you would not see one unless you saw the other. Our friendship had grown to the point that we could almost finish each others sentences.

Friendship bond was so strong between us that we began to share days together. BUT, we had never shared intimacy with each other and it wasn't an issue either of us had even considered. One night while in my apartment, I recieved a Phone call about the passing of a young lady I had grown up with and was unconsolable for my loss, she was a close friend from childhood and her death so young was devastating to me.

I went to bed that evening near tears and truth be known crying for my loss. My friend came in the next morning with a surprise breakfast in bed for me to cheer me up. We melted together somehow during this time and we made love for the first time. My first time with anyone. the passion, lust and lovemaking were beyond imagination even today I can't remember everything we did or even attempted, and that is really not he point here anyway. This totally unplannned and spontaneous event was the best sex I have ever had before or since.

We both looked at this as a something that just happened it was meant to be. We did not consider ourselves as in love just two people who enjoyed and shared their feelings with each other in an intimate way. We stayed close and continued to share our special moments over the next 4 years.
I continued with the paper and he with radio until he found a better position just prior to my finishing school and landing my first job, post school.

Radio job took my lover to Florida and my first job took me to Denver, then on to Wyoming. We stayed in contact and even met from time to time over the next 25 or so years and from time to time when we met we also shared some of our common intimate bond. Until a little over 5 years ago we lost track after a move for him to Houston.

I was curious and thinking about my first lover recently and had googled him and done numerous searches to find him. NO LUCK!!! Then 2 days ago I had another thought of an avenue to pursue and I googled another friend of both of ours and one I hadn't talked to in years. I found Him and my first lover.

I had open heart surgery a few years back and was not expected to survive the surgery. Our mutual friend had told me about my lovers career and how he had done so well while in the Houston and Florida markets. I also told him how I had done and told him of my heart attack and subsequent surgeries. The surgery that almost took my life but also saved it and how it made such a differnce for me, as if I had been given a new life. He asked when it was and I told him it had been early morning on April the 10th. My first lover had died of a massive heart attack in the late evening of April 9th........

Coincidence is something I do not believe in and this is all to coincidental for me. But now for what I believe to be the first time, I realize that the friendship we shared was actually my first LOVE....and what if the love that held us together as such close friends was really love.

Cramer this is for you my friend, my lover and my first true love. Hope to see you again soon lover.

amoldenough 69F
16436 posts
8/12/2006 11:18 am

dis, thankyou for sharing your touching story with us. I believe that love is love, no matter how, where, or with whom you find it. All love is good. I can tell that Cramer was very special to you.

"Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened."

rm_bulldog83274 40M
2 posts
8/13/2006 8:38 pm

wow, that was very touching and heartfelt.
talk at ya later

angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
8/14/2006 3:48 am

That was a beautiful, heartfelt story. What a wonderful friendship and love that was. It seems that your lives are connected and intertwined, even after his death. Thank you for sharing this with all of us.

getenpersinal 36M
1421 posts
12/12/2006 9:20 am

Oh, my but this was worth reading, since you both stuck together as friends across all time and distance, that is more than simply friendship. It's hard to lose but harder to let go. He'd welcome you openly if only he knew, so glad you recovered.

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