wow...it DID happen  

rm_deelushess 54F
39 posts
1/9/2006 7:53 pm

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3/6/2006 7:44 pm

wow...it DID happen


He did show up and everything happened as I thought it would, but, all professional and no mention of anything.
Why the heck was I so disappointed.
I sure didn't want anything to happen, but I guess the idea that he has told me of his interest and I had about a month to think about it ended up making me...interested.
I felt such a let-down I wanted to just jump anyone. How freakin crazy is that.
Then I thought about how I could get his cell number or leave a message at his other destination that I had some stupid question and tell him I wanted to "go for coffee".
Deep down I know he was waiting for me to say the word because he was very clear about his interest. So, I undermined myself because I know it's not good for me.
How dumb am I that I actually am disappointed though. I just thought...here...I can just go and do him and there won't be any strings attached and no-one will know and it will be a great fix.
Well, I know the saving point is that if it's gonna be right and I'm ok with it and he (whoever he is) is ok with it...there won't be all this bull-shit disappointment stuff.
Right? lol.
dee

keithcancook 60M
17859 posts
1/9/2006 8:34 pm

Confusing, isn't it?


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