Balance Never Happens  

rm_cumshoteyes 55M
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8/22/2005 1:44 pm

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Balance Never Happens

My last blog focused on sexual appetites and questioned compatibility in a relationship dynamic; dynamic the imperative because nothing in this natural world is really ever a constant. Physicists have even proven the Time itself is not a constant.

This is an email excerpt from someone caught in the eddy:

My ex-husband could never hold a job, but he was great in bed. My present husband is a very good provider, but he is absent in bed. I would like to be able to find a way to have my cake and eat it too, but do so in a way that would not hurt anyone.

Don't we all want our cake and eat it too? Sometimes, this is the advice I give myself. Fuck balance, pick one thing and aim for it and don't whine if the other important things you chose to ignore become problematic later. Of course, after hearing the words come out of my mouth (or my fingertips in this case) I wince at its harsh but all to often truthfulness. We don't get everything and if we're damned lucky we might get a few things we want.

It's a dismal outlook, really. Just be thankful that I'm not writing about Mutually Exclusive scenarios. I'm just looking for fun and adding excitement to my life. But recent events in my life are having me put thought energy into the wasteful abyss. Okay, I fess up. I'm seeing someone that wants to constantly talk about our "relationship" and "where its going". She knows I like being single. She knows I have little intention of being married again. A good friend of mine recently asked me, in reference to what I'm going through, what is it that I want. Well, its quite simple really. I want a steady girlfriend. I do not want a second wife. Yet, there she is always bring it up in conversation. And every time she does, the countdown clock hand ticks closer to the Big Goodbye.

rm_cumshoteyes 55M

8/22/2005 11:13 pm

Good point and I don't have an answer to why prolong it. Maybe for me the moment of clarity hasn't come, the inevitability is still vague. But it is terribly apparent she and I want different things and either of us will have our satisfaction.

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