Now taking up residence in my chest  

rm_cockmerollme 45F
1607 posts
6/26/2006 6:40 am

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Now taking up residence in my chest

I went to the National Holocost Museum in DC on Friday, and I knew it wouldn't be a trip to the circus, but it just devistated me.
I left work early on Saturday, with this deep profound saddness just sitting in my chest.

It's not like we didn't study this in school, or didn't read books about it. I know other people I've spoken to were amazed by the amount of information that was given. But, in NY, we learned about his tragedy all the time.
But it's still just


I felt completely lost and terrified. So many people just extinguished

Just snuffed out

I was crying in the place, in the bathrooms, the whole way home, in my room when I got home, and at work the next day. That's when I decided to leave. Too much. Too much.

My friend who went with me kept asking me if I was alright.

And I just kept saying "It's a lot, you know? It's a lot..."

You think the world has changed. you think people have changed.

You look at what's happening in Darfur or what happened in Kosovo and know that people don't change.

No body ever thinks what they are doing is wrong.

I just came home and cleaned the whole day. Just cleaned and tried to clear my mind. I said a decade of the Rosary while I was there, and just had to remind myself that my church..

The church in Europe..Catholic church

The Pope and Bishops

did very little to stop this.

And it makes me just a little more ashamed to call myself a Catholic.

A side note: Spellcheck isn't working. Any spelling errors here are deeply regretted.

Thank you. God Bless.


demonicsexkitten 41F
10671 posts
6/26/2006 7:38 am


midwestboy1972 44M  
663 posts
6/26/2006 7:48 am

Sweetie, I'm sorry you feel the way you do, but you're supposed to feel sad and give thought to what you saw over the weekend. That's the purpose of this memorial. History is doomed to repeat itself if we forget. Unfortunately, sometimes it repeats itself anyway.

As a fellow Catholic, I have pondered the same questions you have regarding the church. What you have to remember is that the Vatican is in Italy and could have been destroyed and everyone killed if Mousellini ordered it so. Sometimes we do what we have to for survival. I'm not condoning it or saying it's right, just explaining. Second, remember the "advanced" world had never seen genocide to this degree. The United States military didn't even believe what was going on until we liberated the death camps years into the war. If you can take any good out of this whatsoever, remember that it was Nazi cruelty and occupation that shaped perhaps the greatest leader ever of the Church, Pope John Paul.

Just something to think on!

rm_cockmerollme 45F
1223 posts
6/27/2006 8:36 pm

Demonic--thank you! I needed that.

53-yeah, I couldn't get thru Black Hawk Down. I've never seen Schindler's List either.

Midwest- I guess you have a great point. JpJ II was awesome, and did a lot to repair the damamge.
This new guy..I'm not so sure.

HotnSultry- Yeah, like that helplessness and anger all at how I felt on 9/11

Ox612- Never, ever will...thanks.


skyking412004 53M
5363 posts
6/28/2006 11:41 pm

_____It makes me strangely comfortable to see that you cried about this. It would make me cry too. An old guy I know loaned me a soft cover comic compendium called "Mouse". It was written by the son of a survivor of a death camp. In it the Jews are illustrated as mice. The Nazi's as cats. The collaborators were pigs. It brings the horrors of The Holocaust to life, both what was done to the Jews, and what they did that was necessary just to survive. At least know, in our information age, when things like that occur today, it is broadcast and someone steps in to try and stop it. The Church were just men, doing what they felt they had to to protect their lives and the future of the church. Hitler would have devastated them if they had opposed him. I have no great love for the "Holy Roman Church", but I can understand them trying to preserve the institution.

rm_cockmerollme 45F
1223 posts
6/29/2006 1:12 am

"Maus" ..yeah, we read that in school.

Same guy used to do covers for the New Yorker. Haven't seen that in years.

I see a trip to the library soon.


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