I don't good so feel....  

rm_cockmerollme 45F
1607 posts
11/20/2005 11:48 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

I don't good so feel....

You know what? I'm a fraud. I slept with someone from AdultFriendFinder, something I never thought I'd do, and now I'm having second and third thoughts about it. I'm truly not that kind of gir..woman. I just can't believe I did that! Even though it was very cool and nice, I still feel all weirded out by it. I don't think I'll be actice on this a lot anymore. I'm just not feeing good about the whole thing anymore. Here's the lesson. Do not start your sexual life at 28. It just fucks everything up. Ewww. I just realized how tacky I am. Fuck! Fuck !Fuck !!! And how come "repentative" is not a mood offered by this stupid thing? Cause that's how I feel.


PawPr1nt 51M
133 posts
11/21/2005 12:03 am

CMRM - You read too much into your sexual habits. You are catching-up on what most people have been doing since they were about 14 years old.

I wasn't a virgin at 27/28 years old, but I sure as hell never took part in the disco/dating/experimenting stuff until then. I have been like a kid in a sweet-shop the last 10 years or so, trying-out (and learning the hard way) about people, sex and relationships.

You are not, nor will be, a 'slut' unless you think you are.

Ditch the self-inflicted repentence/guilt stuff. If you are hurting other people, by all means change your style and/or make amends.

Don't try to lock your instincts away, simply because you feel they are bad. They will never go away until you have worked them through to their natural conclusion. It will happen. Calm and wisdom will reign one day, when you have done what you need to do.

If you don't feel 'good', stop for a while.

PawPr1nt 51M
133 posts
11/21/2005 12:05 am

All sounded too 'instructive', my last posting :=>

You'll be OK. However you feel, it's better you have some kind of conscience, than none atall

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