How can I love you if you won't lay down?  

rm_cockmerollme 45F
1607 posts
11/14/2005 11:54 pm

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How can I love you if you won't lay down?

I just had sex, got laid, did it, and feel ....what's the word? ....oh, right..numb. How bad is it when his come is still dripping out of you and he's got his shirt on already. I know this is a casual thing, but we've been fucking for over two years now. Two years. I have friends who's marriges didn't last two years! But, I don't have the right to complain, right? Isn't this how this works? He gets free pussy, and I can't even get my lightbulbs changed. I'm having fun too, I'm not kidding myself into thinking that it's not good, but it ain't great, and after two years...(noise I can't descibe)I mean, It's my fault. He was 23 when we started, and now I'm 34, and still no closer to my goal...which is....well, maybe I'm goaless right now, but still...I mean, it was like a 12 min. session, and he's out. So I got pissy.I just washed that comforter, you know? And now I gotta wash it again, on my day off. Which isn't until Wednesday. My day off in the laundromat. For a weak 145 second lay. Good Christ. I keep meaning to sleep with someone new, but I can't find any of my good seducing nighties, and I guess I would have to shave. I'm too lazy I guess. But I can't keep sleeping with someone I don't love, or ever will. We aren't even friends, and that's what really bothers me. I mean, everyone loves me, for real. I'm very popular in my own little shallow gene pool that is my surroundings. He's a good guy, just not for me. I tried to have the "don't you want to be a part of a big love somewhere out there?", beacuse, eventually, that is what I want,and he's like "I guess.." Biology majors make lousy conversationalists. But I'm not sure I'd want him to be. (aggravated gutteral grunt goes here) I don't know. I don't know. If I 'd known fucking was going to be this complicated, I would have stuck the virginity thing. ...yeah, ...maybe not.


PawPr1nt 51M
133 posts
11/15/2005 4:08 am

It's an option... staying away from sex.

It and love are way too woven together (especially in women's minds) to attempt either on a casual basis with anybody.

It's a shame that neither really works well without the other and, dare I say it, I actually feel they do belong together in a 'real' relationship.

Looks like you have to decide to be good to yourself and take a break from 'easy' sex. Who knows, it might even free your attitude up to seeing people (future lovers/partners) in a more efficient way?

I really hope you find the balance and get to feel good about what you are doing again.


rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
11/17/2005 4:31 pm

I agree with Paw

Hope you find what you are looking for

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