Another Lover.....  

rm_cjcj9 41F
745 posts
5/11/2006 4:47 pm

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Another Lover.....

Another Lover was a man that I met through friends. He was "older" but younger than I am now. I was 20. He was a very obvious "player." There was something in me that always liked that about men. There is something about those men that is alluring. They pose a challenge. Who can make them fall? Who will be that one to break him? For his obvious hedonism, he was an excellent lover. We could spend hours in his condo overlooking Sand Key just tangled in eachother. He was a slow lover. An attentive lover. But, he had a love for nose candy and other women and enough money to feed both habits. I never loved him. I knew who he was and exactly what I wanted from him. I accepted the good and the bad. But, he went too far one night. He slept with my friend. Other women were not a problem to me, but there is something sacreligious about a friend. In a very non dramatic fashion I told him I was done and it was over. He was devastated. Essentially, I think it was one of those that I allowed him to be who he was. But, when it was over it was more one of those things about wanting what you can't have. He called for weeks crying that he was sorry and he would do anything to be with me. But, that is one thing about me, when I am done I am done. I don't look back. I don't want to be your friend. I don't want to be your enemy. I am just done. That was one thing I always hated about other girls...the high drama, the breaking up and getting back together. I always found that pathetic about my peers. He moved on and the calls became random. But, he would still call every once in a while and say hi or invite me for dinner or attempt to talk about how he had changed his love for women and cocaine. I would tell him that is good, thank you for calling, and no thank you. Then I heard his hedonistic ways really took over and he began losing control of his habit. I guess he hit rock bottom because he ended up hanging himself in his beautiful palace by the sea.

1ande4u 39F

5/11/2006 5:44 pm

That's sad about the guy. It's good that you know who you are, though.
A lot of people spend their whole lives trying to figure that out.

rm_tommyv692005 47M
23 posts
5/11/2006 5:46 pm

Guess thats just more may HELP you be happy....but it cant MAKE you happy.....nor buy it for you.

rm_ChiRugger 43M

5/11/2006 8:26 pm

I once dated an older woman I was 19 she was 29. We stayed together for about 2 years. She started snorting blow, and seeing an ex, who happened to have found stardom in a daytime soap. I was too young to see what was going on, and like I got hit over the head with a lead pipe it dawned upon me why she was coming home at all hours and rent was not getting paid, and I needed to bail her out of emergency after emergency. Yeah how good it feels when you free yourself of that. The only bummer was that it had taken my another five years before I could find another woman who so as talented at fellatio.

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