A long long time ago  

rm_bucfannn 61M/60F
1805 posts
6/25/2006 7:51 am

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A long long time ago

I can still remember how the music used to make me smile...

Not a sound from the Pavement
Has the moon lost her memory
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight the withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind
begins to moan.

All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days,
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was,
Let the memory live again.

Every street lamp seems to beat a fatalistic warning.
Some one mutters and a street lamp gutters
and soon it will be morning.

I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin.

Burnt out ends of smoky days
the stale cold smell of morning.
The street lamp dies another night is over
Another day is dawning.

Touch me
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me you'll understand what happiness is,
Look a new day, has begun.

I opened my eyes this morning in a contemplative mode. Better than the crab-ass way I was yesterday, but, sometimes, I get lost within the maze of thoughts that seem to blindside me. Coming out of left field, so to speak. At times, my subconscious seems to act like the little silver sphere in a pinball game. Bouncing back and forth, around and around, collecting points. Lights flash. Bells sound. Until that little silver sphere seems to disappear into a dark abyss. Then silence. Absolute silence, until the next ball is launched. The lights flash again, bells sound, and the atmosphere is charged once more.


Memories. We all have them. They are our link to the past. Some good. Some bad. They are what makes us unique, as individuals.

We can escape into the good memories for a while. Remembering little things that bring forth a smile, perhaps a chuckle. A memory can be as simple as remembering a touch. Or, a smile. Or a scent that transports us back to childhood. I'm that way with White Shoulders perfume. My mother wore it when I was young. I remember being rocked, her gentle voice humming a lullabye, as I drifted off to sleep. And now, I have that same rocker. I can go back in time by just sitting in it. it makes me smile, as I remember life being carefree, and also feeling very secure.

And, then again, there are those memories that make us cringe. Why do we remember them?

Perhaps it's to make us aware that we CAN make the same mistakes twice. Or, perhaps, it's just a way that the brain keeps us grounded.

I'm not sure. I'm leaning more towards the making the same mistakes twice angle.

Of course, in remembering the bad, there is ALWAYS the "coulda, shoulda, woulda", IF we could do it all over again.

I could have done ________, and things would have been different.

I should have done _______, and it wouldn't be the way it is now.

If I would have done _______, things would be better.

So, yes. Maybe remembering the bad memories will keep us from making the sames mistakes over and over again. At least, that's my take on it.

But, good or bad, memories make us US. They are special to US. We can choose to share them, or hold them tight to bring out whenever we need a smile, or even a thought-provoking moment. It's not dwelling in the past, it's experiencing life's treasures. And, memories can be psychotherapeutic, and help us heal. Just like tears cleanse the soul, memories cleanse the psyche.

Touch me
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me you'll understand what happiness is,
Look a new day, has begun.

Enjoy your days in the sun. Make as many memories as you can, and your life will be more enriched, as each street lamp dies, and a new day begins...

Memory lyrics by Trevor Nunn

softnlush 53F

6/25/2006 1:13 pm

Oh nooooo...you are in one of those SHOWTUNE moods aren't ya? Yep I been there..tho well...this particular song usually makes me feel homicidal..at Least you did not print the words to Annie's Tomorrow..cause now I know where you live and I would have to kill you LOL LOL..

When I get in showtune mood mode..My usual song will be..Seasons of Love from Rent..525,600 minutes..how do you measure,measure a year?

Right now,I am singing Sunrise,Sunset from Fiddler on the roof..so you can say I am just as bad..then again,there is the time in the car..listening to the original broadway soundtrack of Hair..hehehehe..

Your friend always...even during bad showtunes...


rm_bucfannn replies on 6/25/2006 1:22 pm:
MY GOD! Have you NO decency?? Memory from Cats is BEAUTIFUL. I'm stunned.

But, oh boy. Guess what I know???? HEH HEH. And, you betcha, I will sing it. Maybe when we are headed out to Tampa DRIVING REALLY FAST so you can't jump out of my car

Would I do that to you? Uh yeah. You betchersweetass I will... You do know how I am.

I also do a great rendition of Camptown Races. I especially LOVE the doo dahs

Looks like we're on, chica. Yes indeedy...

softnlush 53F

6/25/2006 1:26 pm

Don't make me whip out a copy of my Kiss Tribute CD(performed by people who only wish they can be as good as kiss..shame on you kip winger shame on you)...in MY car..hehe,now that will be funnnner

rm_bucfannn replies on 6/25/2006 1:34 pm:
Lord have mercy. Looks like I may have to submit after all....


However, I do have the greatest hits of Frankie Avalon. Ohhhhhhhhhhh Vennnnnnnnnnuuuuuuuuuuuus...............

seek_u_topia 50M

6/25/2006 2:11 pm

so much to think about again from you my friend. "memories cleanse the pysche" i like that...and of course make us who we are.

the mind does work in mysterious ways...but at least it is working...


rm_bucfannn replies on 6/25/2006 2:35 pm:
Thank you. I guess I had to redeem myself from yesterday's rant.

However, tune in tomorrow. I've got another one of those "wonderful men of A.F.F." posts

oldude1946 70M

6/25/2006 2:52 pm

Memory huh, people will talk about me for years when I go

rm_bucfannn replies on 6/25/2006 2:58 pm:
I think they're talkin' about you now, darlin'

rm_FreeDave2000 60M

6/25/2006 4:11 pm

I rely so heavily on music to effect my mood. Right now I'm listening to Dave Matthew's "Crash Into Me" My God what a sexy song. This morning I was watching the movie "Changing Lanes" again and I noticed in the end of the movie Anne Lennox sings Bob Marley's "Waiting in Vain" Oh the way her voice wrap around those word sent me off to another place. Not a memory though I had never been there before. I going ot listen to it again.

rm_bucfannn replies on 6/25/2006 4:51 pm:
I, too, have different styles of music for my moods. When I'm in need of uplifting, I crank up the classical - Vivaldi, Rossini, etc.

When I'm in the mood to sway, Dave Matthews, definitely. (and, yes, Crash into Me is very sexy).

When I want to rock out... it's Queen, old Eric Clapton, Tom Petty, etc.

Dance for me is a lot of Keith urban, especially Days Gone By, (I'm listening to it right now I love that song! ), Disco, and a lot of country.

I also LOVE cajun, tejano, blues, Sousa, Manilow, 50's, and so on... my tastes are quite eclectic.

Although, I cannot stomach at all, and I can only stand hip-hop for a short time.

nice to see you again, Dave

rm_jami95 66M
69 posts
6/25/2006 8:13 pm

This is one of the most touching posts I have seen you make. The thing about your mother really struck a cord with me (you know why).....

rm_bucfannn replies on 6/25/2006 8:24 pm:
yes, I know..........

HeardLankaMalls 55M
2925 posts
6/26/2006 5:16 am

Very nice Fann

rm_bucfannn replies on 6/26/2006 5:22 am:
Thank you, Cor

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