My life  

rm_bubblybut02 33F
41 posts
9/13/2005 10:15 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

My life

People are always asking me why I don't have a boyfriend. Well, I'll tell everyone here. I have had a bad experience with guys in the past and I'm afraid to commit again. I had been dealing with my boyfriend who later on became my husband, smacking me. He then said he'd take anger management classes and come back to me. Well, a couple weeks went by and he came back and said he was better. He showed me the next couple months that he was better and at the young age of 19 I got married. Yes, dumb, I know this. Well, we ended up moving to where he was raised to be near his adopted parents which were also his grandparents. Well, when we moved up there I got hired as a card dealer at a casino. I had lots of fun working there. We ended up moving into an apartment where we were living in a two bedroom apartment with one of his childhood friends. Well, here I am living in an apartment with two guys. My husband had no job and his friend worked part time at a small local restaurant. So, I'd come home at 3 am to a messy house of which I wouldn't be able to stand and I'd clean. Then I'd get up the next day and cook the guys dinner. Well, a couple months later I find out I'm about 10 weeks pregnant. Well, I'm scared nervous of course. Time goes by and my husband is trying to treat me right, but he ends up getting into an arguement with me over money I worked for and ends up following me to the bathroom and yells at me, while I'm trying to piss. I start telling him to shut up and let me piss. Well, anger builds up in him and he slaps me so hard that my forhead bangs into the wall. I come out of the bathroom and there is a little trail of blood coming down from my forhead. He runs me into the bathroom and cleans me up. Well, I had to go to work the next day with a huge bump and cut on my forhead. Well, I'm about 5 mths pregnant now and we get into another arguement over him sleeping with one of my friends and I go to leave and he stops me by grabbing my arm and he's yelling at me, what makes him think he can do that when he's the cheater!?!? Well, I turn away from him and go to walk away and he just reaches out and pushes me, which causes me to fall down the stairs and brake my foot and lose my daughter who is now burried next to her great grandfather, whom I just visited both of them July 8th which a year ago is when I had lost her.

digdug41 49M

9/30/2005 9:44 pm

WOW sorry to hear of your unfornate loss and I just discoverd your blog cruisin blog land I hope that you find what it is your looking for your still young and with the right decisions you'll be just fine
hope to see ya around, take care luv

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CaboWaboVHnut 56M
637 posts
10/1/2005 5:31 am

My heart hurts for you ! Why does this type of thing happen so often in our society today ? I can't imagine the pain you've endured. Hope a cyber HUG will brighten your day a little ! Peace !!! Cabo !!!

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