Trying something new ...  

rm_benjammin681 35M
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6/3/2006 6:36 am

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6/4/2006 9:09 am

Trying something new ...

How to begin is always a difficulty in life ... like in conversation with a new person, or just trying to start one of those papers that's due on your teachers desk tomorrow. Augghh, how I hate it.

Well first off just an introduction ... I'm new to the St. Louis vicinity for over a few months now. I left my homestead half way across the US to take a job which pretty much is populated by coworkers who have or are having families, and of course are married. In addition many of my own friends back home are soon to be married. So, in short, I have this underlying urge to find someone in my life.

Right now I'm in a precarious state ... I hardly know anyone other than my coworkers, everyone around me in life is getting or is already in a relationship, and I feel like I have the biggest 'Y' chromosome in the world. There's always this feeling of a desperate need for love and compassion, and most especially sex, but I'm a man of morals and values ... I was even very hesitant to join this online service (the underlying tones are mainly sex). But nevertheless I think the greatest risk of all is not taking one, and so I signed up in hopes of just expressing myself, getting thoughts and opinions back, and maybe some good friends along the way. I'm not sure where this blog will take me, but I hope to use it as a more private forum of expressing a particular subject with a more educated crowd.

So in short I feel pretty much lost. I'm always looking for avenues to venture out and meet people, but I'm not so keen to doing it by myself. I know I'm a pretty good looking guy ... thin, athletic, 5'11", only 145 lbs ... but mentally I'm not going to just go out to random bars by myself to meet people, I'm only comfortable with those I know. So for now I simply sit at home, relax from my daily job, take on projects to occupy my time, and do extensive investigation on local happenings, outings, etc., things I can do, get involved in, meet people. I've done a ton of stuff, so I'm not just sitting on my ass and doing nothing, but so far no luck ...

Hopefully this might invoke some change.


6/3/2006 8:22 am

Wishing you sexy success! Kisses from MO {=}

Blogs are a great way to meet friends! Visit other peoples blogs and comment and journal and post as you wish. I might suggest also to check out the GET LOCAL. Try out the meet and greets! Smoooches!

just a squirrel trying to get a nut

sexyariesgirl 57F

6/3/2006 8:59 am

WELCOME! And good luck....

Power To FOK

rm_benjammin681 35M

6/3/2006 2:11 pm

Thanks to everyone for the welcome. I will definitely be investigating those meet and greets and I will do my best to keep this blog updated daily.

free2chose2 66F

6/3/2006 2:33 pm

welcome to the blogs and as said do venture out locally--take your time

Don't worry, be Happy

teaser2009 34F

6/3/2006 6:17 pm

Hey there dear! i got your comment on my blog and thought i'd be sweet and respond here. Losing someone close to you is like losing yourself a little bit, because you have become almost the same person. Until Paul, i too felt the same way whenever a friend of a friend died...i was like "oh that's sad....wanna watch a movie??" it didn't directly effect me, so i didn't really care (and i work in an ER...see a problem there?)

After his accident and death, i face life a lot differently. I don't sweat the small stuff (honestly, life is soooo much easier not). I enjoy it for what it is. Only time i get upset is when someone at work reminds me of paul (like a car accident person...or a couple with a big age difference..that sort of thing).

I wish you the luck that you never have any sort of loss like that, because what i've gone through is one of the worst tortures someone can experience, because it's all inside have no wounds to actually mend.

On that note...something happy. I hope you're enjoying st. louis. I'm born and raised here but love making new friends. I'm educated (but like to hide behind a ditzy exterior, its more fun), but obviously can have some semi-deep conversations. STL has a lot to offer but it is best saved for that special someone. Everyone around you getting married?? Get younger friends!!! and as far as you breaking your lamp, do you want a hug? I give you one (said in my best baby's hot, really)...

Hope to talk to you again soon.


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