rm_ayumu1977 39M
39 posts
7/28/2005 2:43 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


I managed to keep my pants clean this morning.

These days I cannot play with myself... The reason is that I get bored with porn videos downloaded for free. Also, hard-working during daytime makes me too tired to imagine a sex with someone.

I want to feel a girl's body, soft and smooth. That's all I want now.

Today's photo is Ayumi Hamasaki, a Japanese pop diva. I don't like her songs, but do like her appearance and her outlook on life. Good appearance isn't enough. To attract my attention, a girl should also be pretty much serious about how she lives. Unlike her British counterpart, Ayu (her nickname) isn't the kind of girl who gets divorced immediately after getting married.

For some reason, Ayu is often featured in porn videos. Of course, she doesn't appear in such movies. But porn stars pretend to be Ayu by wearing what she wears in her promo or magazine photo shots. This is very rare. No other pop stars or actresses in Japan are treated like this by porn video makers.

Also I read two confessions on the Internet by ordinary guys who had sex with her. They appeared to be real (of course you never know though).

But personally I don't fancy having sex with her probably because I respect her life. Unless she likes to be fucked by me, I won't try it even in my mind.

And I know that this kind of my mentality is probably the cause of my inexperience...

cuddleboy69 49M

7/29/2005 7:05 am

I don't understand what you mean. Are you saying that you don't like the idea of having sex with someone who you respect?

rm_ayumu1977 39M
15 posts
7/31/2005 3:52 am

If I respect someone and if she fancies me, then I do want to have sex with her. But if I just respect her and if she doesn't fancy me (because she has her partner, for example), then I don't. That's what I mean. Am I strange?

cuddleboy69 49M

8/1/2005 11:02 am

No, not strange. I have some kind of similar sickness that has held me back from having sex with the women I am most attracted to.
If I like them too much then I sort of respect them and will hold myself back from having sex with them unless I'm sure it's what they really want. This always fucks things up. Women will never say something like:
- yes I do indeed want to have sex with you within the 12 conditions that you have described to me. -
It's just not like that ... they are creatures of the moment, if they offer and you don't jump at it ... most women don't like that, maybe they think that means you don't love them, I don't know (I wish I did).
So many times even with women offering me sex, I couldn't accept because of the uncertainty (I wasn't sure if they were really offering). With women I'm not as attracted to it's easier (since I don't care so much about them).
Anyway ... maybe try to relax and don't think about going so far. One friend told me that for a woman just kissing is not such a big deal. So maybe don't worry about going so far? Anyway I wasn't really able to take his advice ... so I had the same problem for a long time (I guess I still have it).
There are lots of hotties on AdultFriendFinder who live in London, have you tried to approach any of them?

Good Luck!

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