C'est La Vie  

rm_atstepchild 41M
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8/4/2006 7:57 pm
C'est La Vie

Well, I guess she isn't heartbroken over our little trist after all. I realize we didn't do much, but she seemed rather torn last night. Now, she is already conspiring to follow up. I don't know what her longer term intentions are, but I guess I should not look a gift horse in the mouth. I have issues I have to deal with on this, as she does, I just don't know which of us will have a harder time of it. We've had a certain draw towards each other since we first met, which is unusual since I tend to avoid married women, or women in relationships at all costs. For some reason, I never had as strong a repulsion from her. Don't get me wrong, she is far from repulsive, I just didn't want to get involved in that drama. Now I find myself getting firmly embroiled in it, much to my perplexed consternation. I guess I should not complain as long as she is not. I just don't want her to leave her marriage because of me. If she wants to leave it because she is not happy, he is not treating her right, etc, so be it. I just don't think the vagaries of passing infatuation should be the basis. We've been talking for coming up on a year now, so it is not so fleeting, but nonetheless, I do not know that I could promise her a future, and I have been extremely honest about it. I try to leave most of the decisions in her court, knowing that she has much more to lose in the deal if things go south than I do. Her husband getting wind of it and getting violent is always a concern, just never one that I worry much about. I am confident in my abilities to handle anyone I have yet met that I just don't spend a lot of time dwelling on it.

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