swiming with dophins  

rm_aqustic2 44M
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6/28/2006 1:10 pm

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swiming with dophins

like a dodgy light fitting flickering in and out i spent two weeks around new year of 03 in and out of a coma when i finally came out of it i talked total crap for a bit, no change there i hear you say. the people around me were told there would be abuse and plenty of it but my father tells the story that i never spoke a wrong word. christ it must have being the turning point??? i rarely use bad lingo these days unless to get a point across. anyway for the next few days i went throught a rough time i could see and feel rats and snakes climbing all over me i`m not sure now long it lasted for but i do know a lot of people came to see me to try and get me to chill. once i did i so big time i went from that to believing i was a dolphin for what i read today in my file. was a week i can remember that as doctors called to talk to me alot and ask silly questions i used to think THEY were losing it. i went on to spend an other few months in that hospital of which i was read the last rights at mindnight on xmass day of 02. from then i was moved to an other hospital were i stayed for the best part of a year learning to walk and talk again. only once did i think i`wanted out, thought about ending my own life, again it was a rough week but once it pasted i never looked back again some time later once home again i learned

my buiness was on it`s way down the tubes and a lot of money owed to the bank`s and my suppliers i wasnt disillioned in away way as i had aways kept them all happy while i was running the show myself. i got stuck in and all where good to me, my suppliers kept the stock coming once they knew i was back in the drivers seat and pretty soon i was well on the road to the land called "SORTED" and now these days the only thing that get me disillioned is when i hear of other young people falling ill. last week i wrote a blog about a visit i made to co. kerry the trip was to see a ill woman she has cancer. last night she has asked me to take her place and travel to the states to swim with dophins. i thanked her from the bottom of my heart but refused, i am all that i`m ever going to be. where do i go from here?

amber3471 45F

6/29/2006 12:36 am

You've had it tough, but shown you have the strength to pull through((((((hugs)))))


rm_aqustic2 replies on 6/30/2006 12:47 am:
thanks sweetie


6/29/2006 9:24 am

Having survived cancer and other things I reached a point last xmas where I asked myself that same question where am I going. I don't think though that is the right question to ask, the question you should ask yourself is who am I for once you really konw who u are the destination becomes less important and the journey itself becomes your focus. So I ask you a very simple question to start with what is your favorite colour when you have answered that question truthfully and honestly to yourself the next question will present itself and so on. This seems very simplisitic but it worked for me and allowed me to see where I wanted to go in the short term and after that well who knows because the future is not ours to know.

Good luck with the journey.

rm_aqustic2 replies on 6/30/2006 12:57 am:
good on you lad cheers

rm_madred006 45M
438 posts
6/29/2006 10:59 am

hi aqustic fuck uv gone through the mill but it must b for a reason i hope u get it and enjoy wats left of it tc

rm_aqustic2 replies on 6/30/2006 12:58 am:
thanks mad dont worry mate i`m going to get it all.

impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
6/29/2006 6:05 pm

you utterly fascinate me...I wonder why?

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn

rm_aqustic2 replies on 6/30/2006 1:01 am:
thanks for stoping a bit with me impish i seem to have that effect ?? we`ll have to keep wondering.

Sulabula 45F
12659 posts
6/30/2006 7:08 am

Only you know what that answer is....and it will be the right one...

Sula xxx

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impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
6/30/2006 10:58 pm

curiosity killed the pix you know...

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn

rm_aqustic2 replies on 7/1/2006 12:40 am:
sorry pixie ask away i`ve nothing to hide.

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