directionless 34 year old.  

rm_aqustic2 44M
1195 posts
5/28/2006 3:28 am

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directionless 34 year old.

i was up again all night last night nothing to do this time with falling out off bed or the pain i`ve being suffering from, or anything to do with talking crap in the chatroom till the wine runs out. yesturday i went kite surfing or rather tryed to go kite surfing. it cant be done with only one arm working take it from me christ i am a tryer very little beats me. but the one arm thing got me here big time instead i got draged up and down the surface like a ragdoll for a couple of hours before i had no choice but to give in, at frist there was only a hand full of people watching the lads that were with me and their women and the odd passerby, but as i fumbled out of the water there seemed to be a very great big crowd i`m sure they all had a great laugh at the half wit clown i had being but i didnt give a toss. i had had my little daughter there with me and she had a great laugh, as did i and all the people with me. and if the other people watching got some enteraintment out of it then even better. afterwards i droped alanna (my little girl) back to her mums and went home to bed for a few hours rest which was badly needed. at the week end i try as much as i can to chill out as my business can get a bit crazy from time to time and it gets harder to take it easy, dont get me wrong i like being busy even flat out too. anyway i got up at 9.30 last night and went for a few scoups with a mate it turned into an all nighter ending up at a party till 7 am this morning, funny i didnt drink a whole pile or at least it dosent feel like i did and i`ve only had a few hours sleep, last night i was talking to a girl who had being at the cirus at the beach earlyer, she was laughing her head off as was i. she asked what had happened to me and her laughing stoped when i told her, her mum had died of a stroke, i had had 3 her brother died of a brain tumor i still have 30% of mine. i started thinking maybe i`m being silly the way i have let myself drift in wreckless thinking in the last few years?? anyway i`ve had a few hours sleep again this morning and am up now getting the morning eats into me as i write, i never gave myself a plan in life, never even when i had the use of both arms, growing up my brothers and sisters, mates and girlfriends always spoke of what they wanted to be and where it would take them, ok ì did go on to collage and became an engineer but under it all i only wanted to do my own thing in life to be able to work for myself to answer to nobody. i made it i reckon and maybe just in time as theres no work out there for one handed engineers. so thinking about it now i think its time i quit the crazy shit. if i damaged the other arm i`m fucked good and proper. yesturday i had a great laugh and alanna got to see what a silly fella her dad can be. life in slow motion i dont think i can do. so untill i decide what to do i`ll just stay directonless

dublincountess 38F

5/28/2006 8:23 am

ye haven't lost yer touch!!! Still able to give me a laugh!! Ye madzer!! Keep it up!!

rm_aqustic2 replies on 6/3/2006 3:54 am:
dublincountess keep it up?? is there nothing else you think about?? ya header.

HBowt2 58F

5/28/2006 10:09 am

I can't imagine you in slow had fun...alanna had a harm only go this way once aqustic....

rm_aqustic2 replies on 6/3/2006 3:56 am:
i agree hbowt this way foks>>>>>>>>>>>>>the end is waiting for us all.

Sulabula 45F
12658 posts
5/28/2006 2:01 pm

Sounds like you had a fun time

Sula xxx

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