sad tragedy  

rm_annalee79 34M/37F
22 posts
8/16/2006 6:37 pm

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8/29/2006 8:59 pm

sad tragedy

i just found out today that my best friend sandy was killed by her ex-girlfriend this past weekend... sandy is the woman who made me realize that i wanted to be with another woman...there was some serious sexual tension between us, but i didn't want to have sex with her because i didn't want it to ruin our frienship.... what if i didn't like it and she did? she was a hard core lesbian and i was scared that she might develope stronger feelings for me than i would for her... thats why i came on this site.... to find someone who wasn't my best friend.... we were nearly inseperable for the last 8 months... we took the kids to the zoo and took them to the beach and then last week on sunday, nothing... she won't answer my calls or my emails.... i don't think anything of it at first because she is an only child and frequently visits her parents so they can see there grandson... then a week goes by and still no calls.... i start to get pissed and am more than a little confused... did i say or do something to offend her the last time we were at the zoo saturday... she could at least email me back to say hey, i don't want to talk to you anymore bitch... then today my cell rings and it's her number on the caller id... i answer prepared to launch into my prepared speech when i realize that the soft spoken emotional voice on the other end is not sandy's but her mom, susans.... she tells me to meet her at sandy's right away because she has something to tell me that she doesn't want to discuss over the phone... i get to her house in about 15 minutes and her mom tells me to sit down.... then as my 2 children play on the same swing set her son played on with them, she tells me that sandy was murdered last thursday by some physco ex girlfriend who wanted to get back together.... all of a sudden it felt like a 200 pound man was sitting on my chest and the room started to spin... suddenly the only sounds that i could hear were her telling me the details.... about how they revived her at the scene, but lost her 3 times on the way to the hospital, about how the police never got to arrest the ex because she went home and killed herself.... that pussy bitch!!! she took my best friend and a great mom when she was only 27..... i am devastated... my hubby tells me "honey, everyone dies.." yeah, but not everyone dies at 27 years old, in the prime of their life... she was a generous, loving loyal woman and she was probably trying to help her ex.... any ways.... i just needed to blog this out because it has been killing me, especially all the negative things i thought about her... i feel guilty because i should have known that she wouldn't diss me for no reason.... well thanks i feel better... goodnight all...

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
8/18/2006 7:22 pm

Im so sorry

rm_annalee79 replies on 8/18/2006 8:57 pm:
thank you... your concern means alot to me and it brightened my day a little

CB_2 51F

8/19/2006 4:33 pm

Wow, how terrible. Don't beat yourself up just because you thought she was ignoring you or something - it was a more likely explanation than the real one. I hope her children will be OK, presumably moving in with their grandma?

Blogito ergo sum.

chazity20 38F  
170 posts
8/28/2006 4:27 pm

OK so what exactly can a person say about this that will not make it worse.. I dont usually go through blog land but for some reason I seen your pic up at the top and felt the need to read something that you have written.. As I sit her reading this I feel like I am connected to you in some way and having been through something simmular but having been told over the phone for one and in a news paper for the other.. I can some what understand please accept my condolances over the loss of your friend...


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