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their tickets are here
their tickets are here
My ex and my son will be moving to England on the 8th of August. I guess she told my mom too. I got a call this evening.
breif run down:
Mom: hi son, haven't heard from you in a while.
Me: Sorry mom, guess I've nothing to say.
Mom: just thought you'd call occasionally.
Me: when you stop trying to make me feel guilty for everything in my life I'll let you back in it.
Mom: I don't do that. You need to stop holding the past against me.
Me: It's not in the past ma, it's right now.
Mom: I've changed
Me: uh uh. Nope, you haven't.
Mom: blah blah blah
Me: blah blah blah blah
Mom: more blah blah blah
Me: a little of the same blah blah blah
Mom: One day you'll have to answer for your actions as a Father.
Me: Thought you didn't do guilt anymore mom. But that's ok, what actions are those? Not beating him? Not trying to manipulate him? What? He's already going to be the man he's going to be. (he's 4, lol)
Mom: by letting him grow up without his Dad. and I"m not trying to make you feel guilty.
Me: Yes you are mom. I'm a master at manipulation by guilt, I learned it from you.
Me: He'll be fine mom. What about her happiness? doesn't she deserve a chance too?
Mom: This is about Danny.
Me: no it's not. It's about you. Hey mom, I gotta go. Something important just came up.
Mom: more important than this?
Me: Yeah mom... I got some flies in the kitchen I have to kill. Bye... talk to you again in 6 weeks.
Does anyone else have parents that try and manipulate them? I hate bringing my Mom to tears, but hey. It's my life. Not hers. I love my parents, but they aren't my friends. Pretty sad that I have to feel that way I think. But I believe that I need to look out for myself, regardless of heritage. I hope that one day she realizes that every time she tries to "guilt" me into doing something she only pushes me further away.
My folks are going to die someday. That's destined. Can't cheat death or taxes right? Well, I'm wise enough to know that when they die, I'm going to have many regrets. I've done all I can to express to them that I won't tolerate any kind of abusive behavior. They were already a very big part of a very fucked up childhood. My adult life is going pretty well as I unlearn what they've taught me.
Some of you may think that this sounds heartless and cruel. Ok, it may be. I know that they always provided food, clothing, and shelter. I also know that they love me.
However, I'm not going to be treated like the biggest disappointment in their lives. And why you ask? Because I didn't write a novel, build a rocket ship, create a vaccine.
Oh well, shit happens. Get over it already!
So, do you let your parents control your life?
Do you get along with em?
Having a picnic with them on the 4th?
7/1/2006 3:54 am
I just want to sexor you.|
Amazing what you can forget by sweat and candlelight.
7/1/2006 8:01 am
I always felt like I let my Mum down because I never lived up to her dreams. Moms dream BIG for their kids, and that's almost like being doomed before you ever get a chance to suceed.|
Before Mum died, we had a chat about it, the bottom line, she was just glad I was happy with who I'd become - a smart, silly, nerdy, oddball.
Perhaps if you tell her your happy with YOUR life, maybe she'll stay out of it.
Best of luck on this....
7/6/2006 12:08 pm
My mom attempts to meddle and out of respect for her, I'll listen. But in one ear and out the other with most of it!! She doesn't always approve of how I raise my daughters, but that's just it...I'M RAISING MY DAUGHTERS!! Their Dad and I have common rules for them, and we parent them apart, but together. I'm not saying my mom did a horrible job of raising us, but I don't want to be my mother, so I muddle through on my own. You're right.... your decisions and choices are YOURS...|