Love makes no fucking sense  

rm_abutoo2 44M
708 posts
6/26/2006 1:17 am

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6/28/2006 8:52 am

Love makes no fucking sense

Talking with a friend last night. They've been in an on/off for 4 years now. That's a long time to keep bringing your trash back inside the house.
Let's see, clean it up, bag it up, throw it out, walk it to the Domino's Pizza dumpster. Then, go back out dig through the dumpster and bring it back in and scatter it back around the house again.
Well, that's what it reminds me of anyway. But whoever said love made since? I'm no one to talk. I kept letting my ex gf come back too. All I could tell them, was that for me it just pro-longed the pain and the grief. Instead of being able to go through it once I let myself go through it over and over again.
Why? Well, two reasons I think. One, I loved her. Still do. The why is irrelevant. I did and do and that's that! Second reason is hope.
Let's face it, hope is just as strong as love is. We always want to give the other person the benefit of the doubt. Thing is, hope is usually a pipe dream. But that doesn't make it a weak emotion.
Everyone has to make their own decisions on when to call it quits for good. Hell, it's their life and their decision. It really boils down to how much bullshit are you willing to put up with. For myself, when someone says "I'll change."
Well, show me the money. I believe their sincerity and I know that they really do want to be different. But we just don't wake up in the morning and be a different person simply because we want to be. Nope, it takes YEARS of effort, lots of desire, and most importantly, good teachers. If I already knew how to act differently then I would be able to do it.
Truth is, when we say we'll change, what we're really saying is, I'd love to change.

But HOW?

In the end it's up to you. Best of luck to you in blogville. Happy Monday to ya.


canuhandle1968 48F

6/26/2006 3:22 am

AMEN!!! "No one can make us feel inferior without our consent." I sometimes think hope is a much stronger emotion than love... Falling in love carries a certain euphoria... But when love isn't returned, or it fades or you just can't seem to get your shit together, the hope will keep it alive.... Just about the time you think you're "ok" with how things turned out, viola'... there's a text message or an email... or you notice a call on your caller ID. And there you go again... wishing, and hoping, and analyzing "why would he/she call if he/she didn't still care?" or "he/she was at least thinking about me because...." IT'S BULLSHIT, but we continue with hope... It's ok... I can look over in the passenger seat, and God's got my back


rm_abutoo2 replies on 6/26/2006 4:14 pm:
never lose hope though. Keep buying your lottery tickets

rm_PurryKitty2 48M/49F
9753 posts
6/26/2006 2:30 pm

You can only change yourself!

Purry {=}

Purry


rm_abutoo2 replies on 6/26/2006 4:15 pm:
Yup! wtg on the job

Addy19742 42F

6/26/2006 2:37 pm

I ponder that myself sometimes! Why in past relationships have I bagged the baggage to just go recover it. Strange I know!


rm_abutoo2 replies on 6/26/2006 4:15 pm:
one is the hope and the other is comfort in the familiar.

nurse19673 48F
475 posts
6/27/2006 3:55 pm

Been there, done it too, and finally got tired of smelling the shit everyday!!!! Takes time and a lot of air freshner! LOL

Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.


rm_abutoo2 replies on 6/28/2006 5:47 am:
that's right, lol.

safereturns 47F

6/28/2006 7:22 am

Maybe we accept the unnacceptable because ultimately, we're afraid of being alone.

Proximity is amazing--when you're up close, things seem more important.

Most broken relationships given 14-day separations and new people to date? End of original drama. It wasn't the relationship that mattered, it was how we felt about ourselves while in it.


rm_abutoo2 replies on 6/28/2006 8:53 am:
we didn't really want the person, we just wanted to be wanted kind of thing right... lol

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