rm_abutoo2 44M
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8/5/2006 4:34 pm

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8/6/2006 3:40 pm


I've got a little bit of hope. That's right. Just a bit. A hope for what? Hell, I don't know yet. I guess I'm still trying to find my place in this world. One thing I've discovered is that I'm really good at helping people through troubled times.
I know that I could never be a therapist, cause I'm too crude and use too many of my own personal experiences to point out examples of things I'm trying to explain. I also try not to advise. You see, I don't feel it's my place to tell anyone how to behave. All I can do is see where in my past, and those close to me, how my decisions have affected me.
I was told today that I'm a man of integrity. Wow, that means a lot to a guy who refers to himself as a liar, a cheat, and a thief. You see, that's what I used to be. I lied, I stole, and I cheated many people, including myself.
That I'm not that guy today means a lot. I find that a lot of people cannot accept me at face value. It's as if they are waiting for the suicidal axe-wielding maniac to emerge and trim their pubes or something.
It's really great to have it recognized, because right now, it's hard not to look at the mistakes I've made in my past. For those that read my blogs and get inspired, hopeful, turned on, laugh, cry... I gotta tell ya, I was not a nice person.
Just so you understand that from the giddy-up. I looked out for myself first and others... never. Why should I? The only time I went out of my way to do something for someone was because I wanted to be in their good graces for something.
I've a good deed that I'm considering doing. And I'm actually questioning myself on doing it because it involves a pretty woman. I asked myself "Am I doing this just because she's pretty?" My friend... she came to my rescue by pointing out that no, I'm not, cause I just helped out one of my best friends in the same boat. She's right. Not only did I help him, but I never thought twice about it. That's probably why I almost forgot about it. That's when she said "that's because you're a guy with integrity. Wow. Thanks Michelle. Appreciate that

Integrity, as defined by Websters:
Main Entry: in·teg·ri·ty
Pronunciation: in-'te-gr&-tE
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English integrite, from Middle French & Latin; Middle French integrité, from Latin integritat-, integritas, from integr-, integer entire
1 : firm adherence to a code of especially moral or artistic values : INCORRUPTIBILITY
2 : an unimpaired condition : SOUNDNESS
3 : the quality or state of being complete or undivided : COMPLETENESS
synonym see HONESTY

Seems I need to not worry about appearances and just keep on trying to do the right thing by the world. Everytime I help someone I think of "The Grapes of Wrath." Giving when you don't have much to give is it's own reward. I know this. So turn of the analytical mind and just be good.
In her esteeem, and her mom's it seems, lol. Too many guys are lacking in this trait so it's not often believed that the truly nice guys are... truly nice.

I guess time will tell.

What do you think? A trait that's not often found or what?

Love ya all... see ya soon.


8/5/2006 5:18 pm

Integrity is very rare darlin'. It's sad to say, but it's true. The person you used to be doesn't matter anymore. It was a stepping stone in your life and you've moved on. People will only see the person you present to them now. From reading your blog, I think you've developed into an incredible person who not only has integrity, but also maturity and compassion.

rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/5/2006 5:40 pm:
why thank you

marathonman45202 53M
6640 posts
8/5/2006 5:54 pm

Congratulations! I bet it feels good to be on the new path that you're walking.

rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/5/2006 6:31 pm:
most of the time, I can walk barefoot

rm_paapi36 80M
241 posts
8/5/2006 6:46 pm

It is good in picking up this topic you have started with its dictionary meaning.Infact integrity is associated with Integer in mathswhich means wholesome,full,no gaps etc.There need not be any direct relationship between a persons appearane and his integrity.As you have also pointed out close association over long time can only reveal ones integrity.We in India believe if one person can synchronise his mind,tongue and heart he can be considered as one such.It means what you have in mind take it to heart, what you have in heart take it to your tongue,then whatever you speak will always be factual and true.

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rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/6/2006 3:31 pm:
that's just it isn't it? always a trilogy too. mind, tongue, and heart. Cool, thanks man


8/5/2006 10:37 pm

The reason I like reading your blog is because you always seem so honest and open with what you write. I don't know many guys who are so free to talk about how they feel or what they think. I'm glad you do. "Nice guy", before reading yours and some of the other blogs here I would have thought that was an oxy moron.

rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/6/2006 3:32 pm:
well, before you call me too nice let me tell ya... I'm a Republican... lmao. (I only say that cause your from California, but it's true!) I'm one of 5 or 6 here in Oklahoma.

canuhandle1968 48F

8/6/2006 8:46 am

I think that people come into our lives when we need them to... I didn't know you back then... I know you now, and what I know is that you ARE full of integrity. Not only integrity, but compassion, caring, sacrifice and genuine honesty. You told me once that I was a rescuer... You are too in your own ways... To those of us who read your blogs, you rescue a lot of us with your words. You may be putting insight into someone's problems, humor into someone's otherwise blah life, compassion into someone's world who didn't know they wanted it. Human nature in us is just searching for acceptance... Whether you realize it or not, sweetcheeks, by blogging such personal and real grit here, you, in a sense, are accepting all of us with all our flaws by just being so open... Lets us know that regardless of your good looks and your great sense of humor, you're no longer an ass... You're a man with integrity.

rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/6/2006 3:32 pm:
No wonder I talk to you so much, lol. Get my head so big I can't fit through the door

rm_PurryKitty2 48M/49F
9753 posts
8/6/2006 8:49 am

It is rare to have integrity!

Be yourself and have fun,

Purry {=}


rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/6/2006 3:33 pm:
that's the secret to life Ms. Kitty. Love the new pic and best wishes to Sail.

tugger10 58M
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8/6/2006 1:25 pm


rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/6/2006 3:33 pm:
both barrels

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