I Think I Finally Figured It Out  

rm_aWench4U 61M/61F
210 posts
8/30/2006 4:28 pm

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I Think I Finally Figured It Out

I spent most of yesterday mourning the lack of the touch of my on-again, off-again, sometimes- lover "man-friend." Due to a number of complicating factors, we haven't seen each other in ten days. Aside from the fact that I don't know where this relationship is going, and he can't seem to figure it out either, I really enjoy his company, and I miss him when we can't see each other.

It's not just the sex part that I miss, although that certainly is a factor, and I do miss it! But it's having him to curl up with on the sofa and talk to, or maybe just sit contentedly with him beside me, reading, watching TV or me working on my knitting. I miss bringing him a cup of tea as he gets out of the shower, and sharing the newspaper over breakfast. I miss handing him tools as he works on yet another project, and hearing the excitement in his voice as he explains it to me in simple terms.

It's laying with him in bed and talking about anything, everything, nothing, sneaking gentle kisses, and running my hands over his chest, and through what's left of his hair. And most of all, I miss waking up early and watching him sleep as the sun peaks through the blinds on the window.

It didn't take long after we started seeing each other over a year ago for me to realize he was "everything I never knew I always wanted." We got along so well on so many levels, I sort of figured he was going to be the last I guy I would date. At least I hoped so. But as I said, it's been on-again, off-again, so now I don't know.

Yesterday I realized that what I miss most is the relationship I have (had?) with him. I also realized what I want now is a relationship, not just sex. And I'm pretty sure this is NOT the place to find it.

Thoughts?


Remember the past but do not dwell there.
Face the future where all our hopes stand.


~Angela


AstirRelicLatah 64M
1993 posts
8/31/2006 7:30 am

It might or might not be and for me that's not the point. I'm finding a fair amount of personal growth in the blogs...I can also see the same in your writing....so, you might not find love, but you might find yourself...an interesting thought, don't you think.


rm_aWench4U 61M/61F
741 posts
8/31/2006 1:59 pm

Skier,

That's a very good observation that I hadn't considered. Personal growth is always a good thing, despite the pain that is usually involved. No pain, no gain, right?

I guess I am just tired of being alone. Ironically, he called first thing this morning, missing me. So the roller coaster ride continues!


Remember the past but do not dwell there.
Face the future where all our hopes stand.


~Angela


HeatedCondition 60M
890 posts
9/18/2006 11:35 am

If you're looking for a loving, committed relationship, you MIGHT find that here, but the chances are better on one of the more traditional dating sites that A.F.F. doesn't allow us to mention. Still though, as mentioned the blogs do provide quite a bit of insight and growth.

HeatedCondition


rickyred93 48M

12/27/2006 1:12 pm

i think u can find love anywhere and usually it happens in the strangest places at the time when YOU ARE NOT LOOKING FOR IT.

i joined this site and my profile says i'm looking for
fun and sex
as well as
soulmate
if it is meant to be it will and when u least expect it to.
who are we to judge where we meet people if that person makes us happy?
a sex site or church?
happiness is happiness


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