Why Torture Me  

rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
231 posts
9/29/2005 10:45 pm

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Why Torture Me

I am sitting tonight wondering, what I have done in this life so bad to have my soul tortured by those that I gave my heart to. Last night while I was at work my cell phone would ring and when I would answer whoever was calling wouldn't say anything just sit and listen until I would hang up. A few minutes later this pattern would repeat. This went on from 12:30 until 2:30am. There are only two people in my life who blame me for their own selfinduced misery enough to do this. My exwife who I divorced four years ago and my most recent lover who doesn't want me, but doesn't want to let go either, only when there is another hard cock to satisfy her. I hate when people act this way but what can I do. I really don't even know who is responsible, probably me somehow. Tonight after getting home the exlover starts a conversation with me on IM only to turn it into a place to vent HER anger and inform me how I never understood or cared for her.
WHY ME... My only real sin is that when I care, I care too much and when I love, I love too deeply.

My question to you is why must someone who tells you to move on not allow you to do just that. Do they realize the hurt they cause.


rm_magnet4u22 49F
18406 posts
9/30/2005 9:36 pm

I would say get a new cell # and don't respond to the IM's. She knows she can suck you in. It sounds as if she is the one with issues that she can't resolve.....If she won't move on...you still can. My two cents, anyway.



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gusher48DD 58F

9/30/2005 9:44 pm

they have to have someone to blame and since they refuse to blame themselves, they take the blame out on the one they want to blame. The one they let go. Been there..gets better..but never goes totally away..


rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/1/2005 1:48 am

Mag.. Thanks for caring enough to put in your 2 cents. I know it would be wise to head your advise but I am a man and as such I am a fool.

Gusher.. Why can't you be the girl next door?


rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/6/2005 12:56 am

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I'm bad about drawing it then. Come back and be entertained by my antics and the lessons I've learned from some very wonderful women on my road to recovery. I will cary a love for each of them well into the next life.


rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/6/2005 1:01 am

I'm bad about drawing it then. Come back and be entertained by my antics and the lessons I've learned from some very wonderful women on my road to recovery. I will cary a love for each of them well into the next life.


rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/6/2005 1:02 am

I'm bad about drawing it then. Come back and be entertained by my antics and the lessons I've learned from some very wonderful women on my road to recovery. I will carry a love for each of them well into the next life.


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