Never More  

rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
231 posts
10/26/2005 9:50 am

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Never More

I spent the last two nights and yesterday with an old friend who made me realize ----I CAN'T FIX THE WORLDS PROBLEMS ---

WE talked....we laughed.....she cried as I held her.

This morning I awoke to her crying in hysterics as she kept slicing her wrist with a razor. Luckily she is as good at these things as I, and no major damage was inflicted before I could stop her. I cleaned her up and fought hard with her over the question...WHY?

This morning hurt me as deeply as anything I have ever experienced and caused me understand how true it is that.... You can lead a horse to water but you can't make him drink. The only way to fix damage to our lives is for us to do what is nessacary to make the needed changes for ourselves. Others can and may help if asked but ultimately the repair is our own.

HEAL THY SELF..... or just fuckit and go.

Later my friends


digdug41 49M

10/26/2005 6:47 pm

hey twizted I knew putting you on my most watched would be the right thing to do thanx for coming here with real stuff no panzy crap.Man thats somestuff dude, brings me back to when a friend of mine tried to O.D. herself with heroin in my bathroom. what a night that was and when I got her conscious that was my first question WHY? I feel that all of our answers to our ills come from within its just making the moves and asking ourselves the right questions to tap into that stream of healing energy that we begin to see where it is we came from and where we want to go. and I love your blog title bro it couldn't suit me better cya later

roaming the cyber streets of blogland


rm_magnet4u22 49F
18406 posts
10/26/2005 6:51 pm

So true.......we can only fix ourselves.



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duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
10/26/2005 8:50 pm

How traumatic that must have been for the both of you. I pray that she finds something within herself that will allow her to heal. You are a great man to have been there for her.

DustStormDiva


sassybelle21 32F
13313 posts
10/27/2005 9:09 am

i hope your friend is doing much better now


rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/27/2005 10:11 pm

Thanks to all of you. That was a morning in my life that I would have liked to done without. She is now in the hospital straped to a bed for three days. All this because she loves a man who wont allow her to be herself. The mental abuse he has done to her should be a crime but she stays and that is her crime. I may never understand these matters of the HEART.


rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
10/30/2005 7:53 am

I wish I had someone like you around when I get depressed


rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/30/2005 10:30 pm

I will always be around for you.... you are a very big part of the reason I feel as good as I do today.. Thru your wit and sense of humor I am starting to make sense of my crazy world. GOD blesses saints, even the ones guarding or running HELL.

If you are in charge of hell i'm sure it's a fun place. Thanks Saint


tillerbabe 56F

10/31/2005 10:19 pm

Twisted,

That is so hard...to walk away because you have given your all...You did your best, but you can never become part of the problem.. and you can't let negativity suck the life out of you.

She is very lucky to have you, I hope all is well with both of you....


rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
11/4/2005 9:00 pm

tiller----Some people don't want help, they believe in themselves so little and have totally lost all self confidense.

I haven't talked to her since that morning and have no plans to.


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