KARMA---Myht or Magic  

rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
231 posts
10/11/2005 1:59 pm

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KARMA---Myht or Magic

Happy Birthday to Me

I'm glad that's out of the way

Karma is all about the projection of energy and its return to our lives, which I take as if we do good in the world (project positive energy) then down the road of life good will come to us (the return of positive energy). I'm not sure if I buy all that shit personally but things happen in life that makes one wonder.

Today, of all days, thoughts of this wont leave my mind. In my last post here I told about finding the other half of my soul, not living on another astral plane or guiding me through the maze of life, no mine was tending bar at a local strip club three years ago and living her life less than ten miles from me.

Today I would like to figure out WHY I should be so special as to have gained such a gift. I have thought about this at length and believe that I know what it was that earned me this wonderful gift so I will peal off another page of my mind and put it here in the hopes that magically my question will find an answer.

In order to understand this you have to remember that four yeas back after attempting to end my life and failing at this I went home and seceded at destroying it. During this time I befriended a young woman, another bartender. We became good friends and spent allot of time together. We never had a sexual relationship although everyone thought so which at the time just that impression served me well. She was in a long distance relationship with a man in the Army stationed in Hawaii. One night after drinking and partying most of the day she was depressed and thought she wanted to sit on the beach and look at the ocean. Being who I am and wanting my friend to feel better I suggested Virginia beach, hell it was only a twelve hour drive(I'll tell this story another time). On our way back from the ocean somewhere in the mountains as she was talking with the boyfriend on my cell phone he ask her to be his wife. She accepted, I bought the dress and made sure she got on her plane. They are still married today although like everyone else they have their problems too.
In the days just prior to her leaving for Hawaii we searched in vain for a friend of hers. Months later while I was talking to her on the phone she mentioned that she had gotten in contact with this friend and she was working at a club I frequented on occasion. One Friday night I was there and overheard someone call a bartender by her name. Upon hearing that name I ordered another beer and told this girl I thought we had a mutual friend. She asked, WHO? I said that I wished she were here to introduce us but couldn't be because she now lives in Hawaii with her husband. Her face looked shocked and said " OH MY FUCKING GOD, YOUR NOT, WHY DID YOU DO THAT?" She didn't think her friend should be married, after all she's not the marrying kind.

From there we talked a little and she wouldn't let me leave until she finished working at which time we left together, spent the weekend together and have been in each other lives ever since. She will be in my life for the rest of it and when it's over I will wait for the other part of my soul.

These are the two oversexed women in my life who I personally have never had a physical relationship with but a stronger spiritual relationship than I thought was possible. They are also the two women who married the next man who entered their lives. They will always carry a part of my heart and soul with them.

Do you think it is possible that because I helped someone, who was connected to the other side of my soul, straighten out her life and achieve her love (there's that positive energy going out) this allowed me to connect with my "cosmic twin?" This is what I have called Julia for a very long time now.
Is it possible that this first friendship was developed so easily and I liked this girl so much because of her connection with my twin?

This is my life........Always more questions than answers...... Truth is stranger than fiction....;
More wierd events and connections to come.

__Huntress__ 55M/58F

10/11/2005 8:53 pm

This is going to sound like such a "cop-out" for an answer ... we don't always understand the reasons we connect with others, we just do ... sometimes we think it's for purposes other than what they are meant to be ... it sounds more to me like you've understood the true "purpose for the connection" ... and so, in answer to your question ... yes, absolutely ... !


__Huntress__ 55M/58F

10/11/2005 8:56 pm

And ... p.s. Happy Birthday ...


tillerbabe 56F

10/11/2005 9:16 pm

Twisted.....We are all connected,
We've all been here before, ("new" souls are rare....)
That "other" side of your soul? But, you are "one" - there is no "other" side.

In answer to your question: Yes.

Myth or Magic? Neither..it just "is".{=}

your_gypsy 51F

10/14/2005 6:22 pm

welcome to the club... i'm a femme, dressy, lady with a sometimes potty mouth who likes to have a few drinks and maybe a joint once in a blue moon and engage in raunchy sex ... my last true love married a MORMON...
who doesn't drink,
or wear makeup

... but who supports him financially and lets him wear the panties in the family.

hugs to you, twizted.


10/14/2005 7:35 pm

Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday Mr Charm...Happy Birthday to you.
I know that you will find the one you desperately seek for darling, it is going to happen when you are not looking please remember that.

rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/14/2005 9:51 pm

Thank you Sasha... you are a beautiful lady with great insight and compassion. I am sure you will find all the mental stimulation you can handle here along with a bunch of offers for the physical.At present I'm healing wounds and really not looking for anything that has so much power over my emotions.I do really enjoy the wonderful ladies that devote so much time to writing. I have never writen before so for me this is all a new experience. I will try to keep up with you and I wish you all the happiness you can savor.

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
10/15/2005 2:39 am

Damn it, Twizzle. Why in the hell do you have me cryng here at 5.37 am. I have never experienced it so I don't know the answer to that but god, I hope so.

rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/16/2005 1:55 am

Gypsy... Most men are idiots when it comes to loving the right woman. To some the idea of being taken care of financially is a powerful aphrodesiac. They trade their soul for security, sad...I need a love based on a connection of spirits....my only path to happiness and these hurt most when they go bad, extreem sad...

What's a man to do?

rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/16/2005 2:07 am

Saint.... I don't want you to cry.... the only way I want anyone to cry is tears of joy...Why in the hell am I here at 5:00 am... because I just can't sleep.

Thanks for checking on me....

sassybelle21 32F
13313 posts
10/16/2005 6:43 pm

happy belated birthday either you call it karma or "what comes around, goes around", i do believe theres such thing or concept. but then again, to find our cosmic twin or soulmate is never easy. we always run into the wrong ones and think that they are the one. however, it is always better not to try find love as it will end disastrously. if it happens, it will hit us rite in the head and we'll just be so sure. not everybody is so lucky yet there is hope for each and everyone of us and you too!! to love somebody, you need to know how to love yourself. good luck as i am wishing myself the same since i haven't found the one or you called it cosmic twin

rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/16/2005 10:22 pm

Keep looking... a lady has to kiss allot of toads to find a prince.

duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
11/1/2005 1:43 am

How did I miss this? Happy Belated birthday!


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