An Introduction to The Women of My World  

rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
231 posts
10/23/2005 8:42 pm

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An Introduction to The Women of My World

There have been many but very few that I have cared about. This is about the few in my life who I love or have loved not just those I used for sex or allowed to use me for sex.

First up would have to be my ex-wife. I started going with her in high school and married her a few years later. We were together for most of my life and have two children from our union. Then I discovered that she had an affair with a friend of ours that went on from shortly after we were married and lasted almost our entire marriage, until he turned gay. It wasn’t that she searched for and had sex with someone other than me, Love is love and sex is sex but HONESTY is the real issue.

Next came the young bartender I wrote of earlier. She was an attention whore who lacked self esteem and in my view dated men who only used her and abused her because she let them. For some strange reason I connected with her and could feel an emotional pain in her. We became good friends and spent allot of time together one spring. Our relationship never became sexual mostly because I wanted her to see that she was more than just a piece of ass and that someone could and did care about her without getting in her pants. I still care about this lady but we don’t talk because her husband doesn’t understand our friendship and he has made her life unbearable in the past because of it.

Then there’s Angel (not her real name but she really is an angle, at least when she slept). This young woman I fell deeply in love with because she brought a peaceful feeling to my tormented soul. If only she would have given up hiding her emotions behind walls and allowed her heart to open we would probably still be together.

It was during a breakup with my angel that I met JJ (my twin flame). Today I still wonder why and how come I never had sex with her. She is one of the sexiest and sexually liberated women I have ever known. We are best friends and she even lived with me for a short period of time when she needed to find sanctuary and rest her mind and spirit. I love this woman with all my heart and I am happy just to have her in my life. It was through JJ that I hooked up with my next love.

For this one I don’t know where to begin but I must say she is an incredible woman that I love more than life itself. She is the one who broke my heart and I can’t quite seem to get over.

I met “G” at my house when I awoke one morning to find her there visiting her friend. We talked briefly but nothing was to come of it at the time. I was living mostly in Philadelphia and would only come home every couple weeks for a visit. By the time I moved back from Philly for good JJ had moved into her new boyfriend’s house. I was there visiting one evening when they left me alone and took my van to go pick up some furniture. While I was waiting the phone rang and somehow I knew who was calling so I answered. I was right and we talked for over an hour. Two days later she called my cell phone and asked if I would meet her for a drink. The rest is history. We quickly became lovers and later became friends. I always thought I was safe with her because she was already married and wasn’t looking for more than good sex. Was I ever wrong? The sex was great, powerful and quickly changed from just sex to making love where I would get lost in her eyes and those incredible kisses we shared. I have always felt as though we were soul mates and it is very hard to lose a soul mate.

I have no idea what is in store for me as I continue this journey called life but I know that each of these women have left their mark on my soul. I am also happy to say that if I wanted I could pick up my phone and call anyone of them and they would be there for me.


digdug41 49M

10/24/2005 6:26 am

hey twizted I can really I.D. with that being friends and then lovers aint that a kick in the pants. I often wonder why god puts people in our paths sometimes but I stopped doing it and I'm just trying to enjoy the journey taking the good the bad and the ugly as it comes

roaming the cyber streets of blogland


duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
10/24/2005 7:17 am

I have been with married men, but only because I know I can't let my emotions go with them. The sex is great, but my tender heart stays protected.

Finally, I have decided that I am so happy being single, and not having to answer to anyone.

DustStormDiva


rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
10/24/2005 10:19 pm

Damnit Twizzler. What did I tell you about making me bawl. Jeez.


rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/26/2005 11:37 am

dig...lovers then friends works out better sometimes, at least you get laid.

diva....It has to be great to be a SINGLE woman in a womans' world

Someday honey, some guy is going to gaze into those beautiful eyes of yours and srirp off all that protects that tender heart and it really wont matter if he's married or not......Wishing for a chance.


duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
10/26/2005 4:48 pm

Mr. Twizted, what is it you are trying to tell me?

DustStormDiva


rm_magnet4u22 49F
18406 posts
10/26/2005 6:49 pm

Been there.....and, just because she was married doesn't mean her heart was protected, either....soul mates are hard to lose



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rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/27/2005 10:01 pm

Damnit Saint. What did I tell you about crying....Only tears of joy

Kate...Things today are definately profound but nothing seems simple

diva... only that you have gorgeous eyes, a wonderful mind and GOD how I wish there weren't 2000 miles between us. I would love to get to know you.

mag... Yes, I would like to think I left a scar or two on her heart. I know there are a few on mine.


duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
10/31/2005 4:05 pm

We still can get to know each other you know!

DustStormDiva


rm_TwiztedCharm 56M
456 posts
10/31/2005 7:09 pm

We most certainly can and will. Something I am rather looking forward to.


duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
11/1/2005 4:58 pm

I am too! When in December is the Vegas trip? I'll email you.

DustStormDiva


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