Disconnected drivel  

rm_TwistedWhore 36F
134 posts
5/15/2005 9:41 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Disconnected drivel

EXHAUSTED, I can't sleep, I'm falling in love with numerous people, still searching for answers to meaningless questions, get my hopes up and smile only to remind myself this is reality, finding solace in the smiles of others, my eyes never sparkle so much as when I cry, pendulous tears microcosms of emotion, today is hard, tomorrow will be harder, bitterness pervades the sunshine in my heart, looking in your eyes and torrents of shame canvass my hot cheeks, disappointment evident in the way you hold your mouth, pity or judgement, indecisive, I need to leave, drive me away, flaws multiplied, far from sanity, raw and exposed, numb with guilt, show me the path, overwhelming desire, lusty facade, a dream without waking, fragile and broken, these thoughts that reverberate, monotonous dichotomy, hopeless silence, pregnant pauses, regret, lost, lonely with fear, distant misunderstanding, so perfect from afar, vague details on the horizon, sorry never says enough when whispered in your ear, lost causes and strange encounters, frivolous determination, hide me in your gaze when the bottom drops, when all is lost and only you remain, with shattered trust let me borrow your depth, sweaty awakenings and clammy attempts at idealism, struggle to forget your smell, arid listlessness, stop the thoughts that stop my heart, make the rain envelope me with softness, tell me what you think I know, dignified loyalty amidst the misunderstanding, play the song again and lie with conviction.

DoctorO2 46M
5 posts
5/15/2005 8:06 pm

oof, girl, what a rollercoaster ride you're on!

it's funny - this post sounds just like the lyrics from a band that I've been listening to lately in my car. (The Loud Family, one of the many projects by Scott Miller of Game Theory. And yeah, I know, nobody knows who the hell I'm talking about.)

Ok, time for me to stop procrastinating and start packing. Be good, be bad, and *please* try to eat.

- blog voyeur and #1 ass-kicker

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