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This blog is in no way an effort to get sympathy and nor is it a dig at women, so please don’t take it that way; it’s my pure honest experiences and feelings with a subject that has always been taboo around my partners.
To quote a new friend of mine (she’ll be reading this), “I always had a much higher sex drive than my partners, so I just masturbated a lot”
Maybe just maybe, people’s sexual opposites, of the opposite sex, are alive and well, living on the other side of the world?!! I’m living in the wrong place.
Of the partners I’ve had,(with the exception of Miss S. in my previous Blog), I’ve never ever been with a partner that has had more than an average sex drive. I’ve always put it down to the fact there was no such thing as a horny female and I was cursed with this huge sex drive that will eventually drive me insane.
You don’t know how good it has been for me to read woman do what I do, masturbate when you just can’t get that sexual satisfaction from a partner! Many a time I have been in bed and wanted to play, but partner wanted to sleep and that’s fine by me. So I would start rubbing my penis until hard, when the next thing I’d get a “what are you doing”? and get the vibe of “stop it, that’s disgusting!” I would either go to sleep very frustrated or have to sneak away to relieve myself elsewhere.
I have never been with a woman who when feeling horny and their partner may not be in the mood, would then freely masturbate herself to satisfy her needs. I’ve always been open about the fact I do play with “jimmy & the twins”, but my partners have always made me feel there is something wrong with me, “why do you need to do it?”, “aren’t I enough for you?”
So did I ever talk to them about my concerns and why they were so afraid to play or talk to be about it. Yes. The reply was pretty much the same each time. “I don’t need to” or “you are enough for me” (although this would be nice if it was true all the time!, I doubt it was though) and the other reaction was “don’t be rude, yuck”.
So it has taken me many years to cum out of the closet, so to speak and not feel so bad about masturbating when I get the urge. Why haven’t the women in my life been comfortable to play when I’m around? Why have they never watched me or felt comfortable enough to join in? so we could both enjoy watching each other climax. Maybe there is something that I’m doing wrong?
The same sort of scenario applies to the sex toy scene. Yep, afraid so, never been able to watch a simple thing like a vibrator in use and the mention of “lets go have a look in an adult shop”, well!, you would think I’d asked my partners to put them up for prostitution! Thinking about it, I would no doubt get turned on going to an adult shop with someone who is shopping for goods!
I have obviously attracted the wrong sort of female over the years. I some how must give off the illusion that because I don’t drink (well, very little) and don’t smoke, that I don’t t have sex either! The women have all been from a variety of backgrounds, education and had varying physical attributes and none have become nuns!
In summary, I do respect and abide a woman’s right to say no if she is uncomfortable and does not want to participate in what pleasures me. I also understand, some people were/are bought up to believe touching body parts is bad!!!
But it must be such a great pleasure to be with someone in which the air becomes electric with sexual energy and both of you can enjoy being yourselves engulfed in hot passion.
Ooo, I’ve just turned myself on!…
8/30/2006 1:45 am
i remember going to the ....sex shop and had so much fun...all those fun things ..and thinking... what took me so long???|
timing. plain and simple.
Nothing is ever the same... when it comes to pleasures.
with a hint....the erotic senses will manifest into an abounding mess of flesh
the mind needs fulfillment of the body
if it feels good ...it is good
I've done it again...*S*
8/30/2006 5:13 am
Next time I'm in town sweet cheeks, we'll have to do some shopping!|