Thinking...Thinking...Thinking...  

rm_Sylent72 44M
98 posts
4/20/2006 9:32 am

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Thinking...Thinking...Thinking...

Sometimes there is stuff in my head that I am afraid to let out. I am not talking about SEX. I am talking about emotions. If you could see me on the outside I would look totally opposite on the inside. I am talking emotionally. I try to spill my guts to you in a way that is pleasing to the pallet. But sometimes what I have inside is bitter. Sometimes what I have inside scares even me. The emotional feeling of hurt surrounds me. I can't tell you why. It probably is because I lack that feeling of love in my own life. Have you ever given so much of yourself to others that you have become lost? I am lost. I have given unto others for 16+ years of my life. I just crave that feeling that I told you about in my last blog. I crave the "I love you." and the "you are special." I know what you are thinking. You are thinking pathetic! You are right. Sometimes I try to bury it inside and forget about it. If I do that then it comes out as anger. I don't want to do that. This is new to me because I am not use to focusing on myself. Usually it is me living like a single parent...even though I am not. I hate it and it frustrates me but we make the life we live and we live in the life we make. The blame lays on me and no one else. Sorry for the sad blog. I just needed to get it out. My next one will be better.


n0tatalker 39M

4/20/2006 9:51 am

Let 'em out bro... thats wher they want to be anyway!


rm_1SweetBitch 55F
8575 posts
4/20/2006 9:57 am

The best way to help yourself is to get it out...don't hold on to thoughts and emotions that bring you down. Keep talking about it sweetie...let it all out.

No Day Is So Bad It Can't Be Fixed With Great Sex!

1 SweetBitch


timeforfun219 41M/42F  
2155 posts
4/20/2006 10:24 am

Everyone craves that eventually. I held out for years, just giving but not willing to take or allow it to be given to me. Now that I have it, it is confusing and scary and wonderful and I wouldn't trade it for the world. Let it all out because like you said what is in inside can bitter. No better way to help get over it then to get rid of it.

If my boobs were bigger I'd be a BBW!


rm_sexy66619 34F
5 posts
4/20/2006 11:05 am

hmmn this is really sad but its also some thing that most of us can understand.Life isn't meant to be sad,we aren't meant to el alone but sometimes it happens.et it all out but not just to us but to those that really matter to you snd u might just find the release you are ooking for.


rm_DaphneR 58F
7938 posts
4/20/2006 1:08 pm

Most of us come to a point where we realize that we have to live our lives for ourselves. Always giving to others with nothing in return takes it's toll ona person. What you are feeling is no different than a lot of other people feel at one time or another. Let it out and make no apologies. Believe me, we understand.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.


shar1 55F
606 posts
4/20/2006 10:20 pm

Oh My Love I know that feeling so well, Been feeling 'lost' for so long.

Thanks for sharing that, I just know that it wasn't easy for you to do.

Sometimes its not easy to let it out, but its worth trying.

Thinking about you xx


rm_Sylent72 44M

4/21/2006 2:40 pm

Thanks for listening guys & girls. It helps me to know I have a forum to spill my guts out! I have love for you all...even though I don't know you personally...because you listened and said a kind word. Life should be like that.


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