rm_RoryV 32F
33 posts
3/28/2006 11:55 am

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There was a period of time where I shunned boys. Yes, you heard it. I was around 14 then, and totally clueless when it comes to handling boys, relationships and love. It felt like a time where platonic friendship between a boy and a girl was an almost impossible thought. Almost every boy that I’ve gotten close to had confessed their affections for me (and I am not exaggerating). Before you know it, a flurry of flowers, love letters, soft toys and other gifts started coming your way. It wasn’t sweet, it was traumatising. I begun returning gifts back to them, and told them the truth. It was hard, harder than I could ever imagine. Some took it well and we’re still friends; others were offended and never spoke to me again. That’s when I started believing that maybe platonic friendships between two people of the opposite sex are a real myth. I hung out with my girlfriends more often than ever, and thank my parents (and God) for putting me in a girls’ school.

Until I met Mike. He’s two years my senior, a neighbour who stays at the other end of the road. I would see him every morning on my way to school, and after school, we would walk that lonely sloped pathway that leads to our respective houses. But we had never spoken to each other before. One day, he broke the silence with a simple ‘hi’ and we became fast friends.

I couldn’t believe we had so much in common; we love the same books, the same writers, the same almost everything. We would hang out at each other’s place ever so often after school, sharing our thoughts and dreams. he never judged me Mikey felt like a big brother to me, sometimes even closer than I am to my own brother.

Soon, I chickened. I remembered everything that happened before with other boys, so afraid of him telling me things I don’t want to hear. I shut him out. He, however, did not step back. He was perturbed by my sudden change in attitude. In the end, I succumbed. I told him everything. And he just smiled. He told me he had been in love with another girl for a long time but never had the courage to tell her. You cannot imagine my relief. Everything went back to normal after that.

Mikey finally won the girl’s heart and I found my own love that year. We remained close throughout the years, even after I moved to Australia. All my boyfriends after that were incredibly jealous of him. I couldn’t give a care, because Mikey is my best friend and nothing will make me give up that very precious friendship that we share.

Mikey died two years ago this very day in a freak motorbike accident. My heart shattered and I felt this unspeakable pain as I took the flight back home for the funeral. Till today, it still feels very surreal and a part of me still secretly hopes that everything was just a big joke. His girlfriend survived that disaster and we still keep in touch regularly. She is much stronger than I am; she has learnt to move on. Today, she told me that I’m the gift that Mikey has left her. I disagreed. Mikey left both of us a gift, which was his love for us, for everyone in his life.

I know you’re up there with the angels, my dear Mikey. We’ll meet again some day among the stars, and we’ll pick up where we left off.

mr_simply_me 44M
842 posts
3/28/2006 5:32 pm


When I heard about your buddy death... my heart sunk and did not expect it to be surreal.. sigh...

So do enjoy life safely....Life is short.. don't make it shorter


poison_syrup 43F
8533 posts
3/29/2006 5:13 am

Sob... sob... This is so sad... this reminds me of my good buddy in secondary school too. He passed away almost 5 years ago due to cancer and I didn't even get to see him one last time. But he will always remains in my heart and thoughts for he had left me wonderful memories in his short span of life.

Angel Of Sins

rm_RoryV 32F

4/4/2006 10:04 am

mr simple me: Thank you, I will. Life is too beautiful for me to give it up.

poison syrup: Sorry about your buddy too. I think of Mike every living second. He lives in my heart now.

rm_HappyHead88 40

5/22/2006 12:53 am

Hi, Am sorry to read about your friend. Reading about you story brings back some memories of my own. Be strong and that's what he wants you to be. Take care.. *hugz*

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