Alone in the Dark  

rm_Ptalk1155 34M
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3/2/2006 10:49 pm

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3/7/2006 10:06 pm

Alone in the Dark

"Alone in the dark with nothing but your thoughts, time can draw out like a blade."
-The Shawshank Redemption

In college I had a Sociology professor who conducted a test with us. She was demonstrating the technique the government used in the 50s to find the kids in school with a thought pattern similar to that of Nobel prize winning chemists/physicists to help with the space race. When the government examined the Nobel prize winners, they found that all of them possesed a similar style of thought. Here's how it works:

I give you a word. Say, "ball." And you respond with everything you can think of that follows from "ball". Most Nobel prize winners are going to follow a chain of thoughts that takes them from ball to a completely unrelated subject, but if you follow the path, you can see how they got there. So they might end with simply the letter "G". How did they get there? Ball->planet->orbit->equation to determine orbit->gravitational constant->represented by G->G

This is obviously a very simple example. A normal thought pattern would be an extremely long chain of thoughts which ends in a far less apparent relationship. Most people only have one or two related thoughts or they have a bunch of thoughts that are all over the place and pretty much unrelated. I happen to be the type to pass this test.

What does this have to do with the quote at the beginning? Simply put, my mind works in chains this way, so when I'm alone in the dark before bed and stressed out about something, all the possibilities will form in my mind one after the other in a never-ending chain of thought that usually keeps me awake for hours upon end. The possible eventual ramifications of a single choice for decades ahead and people I've never met all flash by my eyes. It's easy for me to feel the weight of the entire world resting on my every decision.

It works both ways too. I can see all the possible good stuff to happen along with the bad, which both makes me excited and even more stressed out that I might miss out on all that by making the wrong decision.

So tonight rather than staring at the ceiling, I wrote this blog to further evidence the psychosis in the making that is my mind for your reading enjoyment. And now I'm going to go back to the ceiling for a while. Hope you all sleep much more soundly than I.

rm_FreeLove999 46F
16127 posts
3/2/2006 11:32 pm

i used to have that problem until i had my toddler, but since i had her i am too wiped out to be kept awake all night -- i fall asleep almost immediately my head touches the pillow, whereas i used to wonder if that expression could even have any validity.

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saddletrampsk 54F

3/4/2006 7:58 pm

try warm milk and a hot fuck..hehe

rm_Ptalk1155 34M
3450 posts
3/7/2006 10:06 pm

FL: I'd like to sleep soundly, but not if I have to chase a kid around all day to get there lol.

MzHuny: Aw, I hope my being up doesn't keep you up, but thanks for thinking of me.

Saddle: Yech warm milk, and I'm somewhat lactose intolerant too, so I have to go easy on dairy products. As for the hot fuck...need to find a willing lady first

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