rm_PhoenixBlu 54
14 posts
10/9/2005 10:01 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


I look out my window and watch as the rain pounds on the glass. I love to listen to the sound of the rain as it hits the smooth surface. I like days like this where I can reflect on my life and the situations that lead me to this moment.

Here I am another year older....and some might say another year wiser. I don't feel that way. I can remember sitting watching the rain so many years ago....pondering my life, the question that always comes to mind is "Where has the time gone." Like a flash of light I am here and now 43....

I believe I have so many things to be thankful for and I truely am. God has blessed me in so many ways....But I still sit here listening to the rain feeling so alone. I know its all about lifes lessons that makes me the woman I am today. I am proud of who I am and my accomplishments.

All of these things don't matter, my heart is still broken. I just thought that at this stage in my life things would be so much different then they are. When did I lose my way and how do I get back on the right path.

But on this day, the day of my birth, I dig deep down in my soul. I find the courage and strength I need to make the make it better, to mend my heart. To put into action the plan I've designed just for me.

And like the Phoenix....after being consumed by the fires of pain and depression I will emerge from the smoldering ashes, becoming stronger and more confident. More in control of my life and the choices I need to make to be where I want to be.

Happy Birthday to me and welcome to the first day of the rest of my life.

AltumHunksUnite 53M

10/10/2005 6:01 am

Belated birthday spanking next Saturday?

Let me drive. I like the view

luvsxoxo 43F

10/10/2005 6:07 am


Girlfriend...Great start! Welcome to blogville....This is actually a great place to write how you feel, to get it out so to speak...


Guess you will be the first to get a "birthday" spanking at the meet and greet...LOL


darkdreamsofu 52F

10/10/2005 8:14 am


I am very excited that you are taking the steps to change your life! I too know how it feels to not be where you want to be at this stage of the game. You have the courage that I dream of.


rm_MisterFrumpy 46M
428 posts
10/12/2005 11:01 pm

and just look at the huge support group you have for whatever wierd crap you want to ponder changing in your life

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