Pardon??? Would You Repeat What You Just Said.  

rm_MustangD6644 51M
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12/30/2005 9:13 pm

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Pardon??? Would You Repeat What You Just Said.


WARNING THE FOLLOWING POST CONTAINS DISTURBING INFORMATION.

DO NOT READ IF LACKING COURAGE UNDER FIRE

A year ago this week the woman who I was married to, and who is mother to my baby boy [who I dont get to see] said something to me that I still have difficulty believing that she or anyone else would actually say.

We had just returned to the house in separate cars following a psychiatrist's appointment for me, booked prior to our Xmas separation. I wasn't expecting her to turn up, but when she did, one look at her face told me I was dealing with a redhead with a full head of steam up. The doctor was busy telling me for most of the appointment that he could no longer treat me because he had been seeing us together. He admitted later in a letter that he was siding with my wife due to more frequent phone contact with her. HELLO wasn't I the patient? Yet I am dropped like a hot potato, WTF?

Anyway, back at the house my wife is running around from room to room collecting clothing and stuff for her and the baby, whilst insulting every member of my family in a very typical unlady like manner. Then she said the following comment not once but twice;

"YOU WEREN'T MAN ENOUGH TO HANG YOURSELF"

I just stood there in total absolute disbelief. I can assure you dear reader that after 20 years in the building game I have heard some absolute pearlers of comments, but this just popped a circuit breaker or two. I was truly speechless.
I just stood there looking at her. So she repeated the comment.

"YOU WEREN'T MAN ENOUGH TO HANG YOURSELF"

With that she grabbed a few items from the kitchen table and left.

When I told my Dad he was absolutely LIVID, that she was in effect trying to push me over the edge as I was trying desperately to hang on. I had been so stretched in every area of my life that death no longer scared me. It was the inner torment that was tearing me apart.

Mind you she was just a couple of weeks too late with her comment because the breakup and her moving out while painful was also like having a very big heavy load taken from my shoulders. OK so it was replaced by a smaller one, but I had at least decided that enough was enough.

In later discussions with my family and in private reflection, I have determined the author and the motivation for the comment. The answer being her family and the house, car and baby boy as the prize. I firmly believe that her father made the comment and it stuck in her head. She was like that unfortunately.

I was disposable as far as those two bit lazy arsed scum were concerned.

"I would if I could, but I cant, so I wont" was a favorite saying of my father in law Gollum.

Does that give you some idea of their smart mouth mindset, and work ethic?

2005 was a year of pain suffering and survival.

I have achieved my major goal to survive the year.

Mustang

What are your thoughts on the above comments?

Fox4aKnight1 43F

12/31/2005 11:18 am

Mustang,

Hugs and OMG sounds like you were well rid of someone tht mean tempered. I don't say that to be mean but I guess it must just nbe me, but that would hurt in its own way. But I understand what you mean abvout the burden being lifted. I have never been married. I think that I have had this sickness so long that I don't really want to inflict it on anyone else for the lng term. And I don't wanna open myself to the hurt that can come of loveing someone like I do when I do "fall" for someone. I have yet to find a decent balance in my life that way and relationships.

I am glad you made it thru and can somewhat talk about it now and congrats on making it thru babe ,
Foxy
*soft smile*


RailBaron2 54M

12/31/2005 8:42 pm

Mustang my friend it sounds very familiar - If you had Hung Yourself she would have gotten every thing & You would have let her win.
now she has too fight. Mustang- If I were there I would take you to a body of water & hold you under- when i brought you up I would ask you what you want- If your smart you would reply " AIR" You need to get to a point where you want your life & child as much as you want that breath of air. Are you understanding what I'm trying to tell you ?
My ex hurt me deeply & I told her how she made me feel Her responce was" Perhaps you should kill yourself & then you'd be out of my life."
Why some one would say they love you then turn right around a few days later & say shit like we both have heard is beyond me.
Anyway My Friend I'm Glad Your with us When things look bad remind yourself " This Too Shall Pass" have a Happy & prosperous New Year.


rm_catch780 52F

1/1/2006 6:19 pm

I really wonder about some people. Breaking up is hard enough, no reason to tear a person apart verbally for the fun of it. i just can not see hurting someone to make myself feel better....but if you think about it, her saying that really did not make her feel better...if it did, she would have calmed down. I always wonder how a relationship can go from caring and loving to hating and the desire to kill someone. Mustang, more power to you....you have class. Best to not say anything, get her out the door and move on....lots of good things to come....I know that.....


Efilnikufecin69 47M

1/12/2006 2:07 am

Hmmm. I think at the point where she said, "you weren't man enough to hang yourself", I would have gotten me some rope, made a noose, and then(while first agreeing with my family to cut me loose) would have hung myself in front of her to see what reaction she would give. After I got back down though, I would tell her, "you weren't woman enough to slit your wrists", and see if she would. What a bitch.(sorry, but she is)


rm_MustangD6644 51M
1031 posts
1/12/2006 4:22 am

Thanks guys and welcome new posters.

Yes she was and is a bitch of the first order and her mother is even worse. We suspect she was suffering Post-Natal Depression, not to mention being controlled by her parents. Things were going to get worse as I will relate in upcoming posts.

Muatang


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