I need TLC  

rm_MustangD6644 52M
1052 posts
11/26/2005 6:47 pm

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I need TLC

I woke up early this morning, it's a Sunday fine weather with a bit of a breeze. Arround 9.30 am I took my two dogs for their walk to the park, well one walks and the little one gets carried.
We got to the park and I had a rest while the girls checked out the trees and ate the bread scraps someone had left for the birds. Meanwhile emotionally I am bottoming out with bad thoughts. These thoughts disappeared when I went and said hello to a lady walking her three dogs and we chatted and walked. Then I met a group of ladies walking their dogs and chatted and walked with them. As I headed towards my end of the park I chatted and walked with a bloke and his two dogs.
As I walked up the hill towards home the good thoughts and feelings disappeared and bad thoughts and memories came flooding back in. I jumped on line here when I got home and was greeted with some welcomming hugs and hellos when I entered the Love Doctors chat room. While these were nice and genuine I was feeling flat so I had something to eat to lift my blood sugar levels.
Clinical Depression and Loneliness are a bad bad combination.
What I really need is some TLC Hugs, Cuddles, Kisses, Stroking and Eye Contact, along with some quietly spoken words of loving care and concern.
Something only a loving ladyfriend can provide.
My soul and ego need recharging and they are not getting enough.
Fighting with the Demonic Black Dogs of Depression is very wearing, try checking out my biorythym chart via my profile and stars guide and examine how it has been cycling up and down.

Its early afternoon on a sunny spring day and I am going back to bed for a nap, this is not living, this is survival, barely.

Depressed and Exhausted Emotionally Drained

rm_MustangD6644 52M
1031 posts
11/26/2005 8:15 pm

I feel a bit better after a sleep, but it is only a small improvement.
A lot of the time I just feel empty inside. Its kind of hard to explain to people who have never experienced it, because it is a weird feeling. I think I will go out for a while.

rm_MustangD6644 52M
1031 posts
11/27/2005 3:06 pm

Thank you very much shyvixen1962.

Chatting to you and the other regulars in the Love Doctors chat room has become a very important part of my day. Mind you I think I am spending way to much time in front of the computer surfing, chatting, blogging and perving, but it is in a way a means to learn how to use a computer and my typing skills are slowly improving.

Chatting and Blogging are ways to develop new friends all be it cyber friends, so getting together for a barbie is a tad more difficult than for face to face friends, but it can happen.

I am wondering about starting a AdultFriendFinder Depression Support Forum because seems to me that depression strikes all sorts of intelligent people and impacts upon their lives in so many ways.

If anyone needs the feelgood endorphins released during sex then it is surely someone with depression. But it not just in the area of sex that such people need help and support, it is everywhere. It is all about taking the load off the camels back until the camel is better.

Cyber hugs are good but personal hugs are best.

RailBaron2 54M

11/27/2005 5:13 pm

Hello Mustang, I know well the Dark path you now tread-As Shyvixen said " This too shall pass" Now you have the right idea about a "Barbie" & yes Mustang I mean that both ways- So Find yourself a tall thin long haired Blond named Barbie & have her over for a Bar B Q, Jim,Smile my friend The light at the end of the tunnel is not always that of a oncomeing train.

PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
11/28/2005 2:45 am

Hi Mustang... I know what it's like too, only my depression can be controlled by hormonal means (namely going back on the Pill). I still have very dark days, especially recently... unrequited love sucks.

Remember there are people out here who share what you feel. You're not alone out there.... *HUG*

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

Rubenesque1968 48F

12/1/2005 11:27 pm

*HUGS* Mustang. It is just too bad you live so far away! I,too, am need of some TLC, it has been a bad week. I know I can get myself out of it, but there is nothing that can replace the care you can get from a member of the opposite sex. (Although, my cats seems to believe so right now...lol)

Fox4aKnight1 43F

12/8/2005 7:33 am

Hugs Mustang I see now the blog I missed before, I understand what you mean though you end up feeling emtey or worse numb almost like a complete robot and that nothing can touch you. I know cause I get that in either its mild form or its deep form when you idly wonder why ya bother, and ya can stop eating and so on sometimes for day . you might try taking a look at my history (further back in blog land (I will post a link here.) I have dealt with this all my life though so I am quite use to the cycles, there has almost never been a time when I wasn't like this , just how I dealt with it. I belive you know that it will pass (cold comfort at the time) but when things pick back up you tend to feel much better till the next time comes around. [post 69880] and [post 75237] are a history of some things in general outlines.

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