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When I was 11 years old I was friends with these girls. We were in the same class at School. Sometimes hung out on the weekends and call each other up on the phone and chat. When I was 14 we were seperated into different classes. Our friendship slowly disappeared. I drifted out their lives.
I made new friends and moved on. In the summer of this year. I bumped into one of these girls in the street. She was so happy to see me. I was happy to see her to. She invited me to her birthday dinner. I said I would come as it would be nice to see everyone. We had dinner, it was nice to see everyone. A couple months later it was someone else birthday so we went bowling. Again I had nice time but I felt uncomfortable. Their lives had moved on so much. I had missed so much.
My life had changed but I didnt feel comfortable to admit the things that had happen to me. I didnt feel I was among friends. So I didnt talk much.
We went out again last week again. I felt uncomfortable again. They had all their in jokes and I felt like an outsider. When I think back to when I was school with them I felt like the outsider. I dont know why I ever thought that after all that time that we could go back to where we use to be at 11. I think I want to drift away again it would be easier than trying to get to know them again. I just dont know what to do.